Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Twenty Two

"phil is gone forever"

phil had saved my life and just like that he was gone and there wasn't anything i would be able to do.

he was my only real friend that i ever had and all of it was going downhill and there wasn't anything that i could do.

it
went
downhill
too
fast

it's all ending at once and who knows could possibly be dead as well and i can't handle the pain much longer.

i wiped my tears away on my long sleeve shirt and i limped into phil's room and the nurses had tried their best to revive him.

they were trying so hard and the monitor had popped again they revived phil back from the dead.

i ran into the corridor while everyone had been leaned up against the wall in tears and hugs which broke my heart.

"guys it's phil and he's alive"

no one could believe the news we all had burst into phil's room but the nurses asked if they could have some privacy so they could work on him for awhile and they'd give use the results later.

we all made our way back into the waiting room and the sky had hung over in a cloudy way.

we all made it to the waiting room all at once except guy hadn't been there and i saw his skinny figure leaning up against the brick wall outside.

i told will and jonny I had to catch a breath of air and i walked outside of the hospital and there guy was sobbing.

once he saw me he pretended to be okay and he wiped his tears away as quickly as he could and pretended like nothing has happened.

"are you okay?"

"no"

"why"

"don't you ever realize what it feels like for everyone to just simply forget about you, i'm worthless and compared to everyone else i am nothing and no one cares about me anyways"

"guy you're loved and worth so much you don't realize how many people wish they were you and that they wish they could meet you i was just a random and lucky person who got to meet you and the rest of the band without you the band wouldn't be complete you're the missing puzzle piece"

he wiped a tear away and he smiles at me and he reaches his arms around me and hugs me.

"thank you reese"

"you shouldn't have to thank me"

"but too bad i am"

life
was
flashing
by

two days have passed by, phil is getting better each day and he's slowly recovering and the doctors said he may be able to come home soon.

"i hope you're happy and basically forget that i am actually still alive right now other then the rest of the band"

" i don't understand what you're really talking about here because i can't honestly i have to sort out my issues and everything that's occurring i promise i'm not forgetting you i love you"

"please hurry up"

"okay i will"

"goodbye"

"love you too bye now"

i clicked the end on the call and put my phone down in frustration as i wish i could be with ashley but i can't now.

two more days have passed and the doctors have gave us the results that phil will be released tomorrow.

i received another call from ashley but this time she was upset and this time she shared the news to me that she really doesn't love me anymore she found someone better then me and she tried to tell me those couple of days ago but she couldn't bring up the words to me.

i shoved my hands into my pockets walking on the pavement, my head and eyes looking to the ground as people pushed and shoved into me i don't care and i wouldn't want my real friends to see me now.

i sighed seeing my cold breath escaping my mouth and i had tears trickling down my face ignoring all the stares i had received.

i pulled my beanie down to cover my face more because i didn't want to be talked to and i just wanted to live my life now in silence.

a voice in the back of my head had echoed and told me i could be better but i kept walking trying to forget it all.

"god you're pathetic" my scottish accent rang

i opened my eyes the next morning and i was all alone in my hotel room and a note was slipped under my door.

dear guy,
i didn't want to wake you up but if i'm not in my room when you're awake i went out to get something to eat sleep well and i'm sorting through my breakup currently which sucks but anyways i will see ya later :)

-reese

i sighed and pulled on fresh clothes and looked at myself in the mirror and i leaned against my bed and I slid to floor looking how pathetic i was in my reflection and i placed my face in my arms not being able to look at myself.

a knock had echoed on my door, i cleared my throat and wiped my eyes and i opened the door with my pale hand.

a figure appeared in my doorway and it was phil.

"phil?"

"hello guy how are you?"

"i'm fine you?"

i hate lying to phil because he actually can tell when you lie more than anyone else.

"you're not okay"

"i know that"

"guy what's wrong"

"nothing"

another figure came into the doorway and it was jonny.

"guy you've been crying i can see"

another tear had rolled down my face

"i'm fine i swear"

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bruh it's been 420000000 years since i've uploaded last and i mean this chapter i thought was rly dumb but i hoped you liked it anyways