Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Twenty Six

this morning i was told news that i officially had approximately five months left to live.

i never felt more alone and more sad in my entire life as the pain ached in my head as i laid curled up crying on the soft duvet.

i hadn't told anyone yet because things were starting to spin on the right track again with phil being okay, chris being released this afternoon and guy figuring everything out.

soft grey rain drops sprinkled and rolled down the windows and i just got hopeless knowing i was really dying and this was really going to be the end.

i'm loosing to cancer and I have to say goodbye to all of my friends and all my dreams and thoughts would just flow right down the drain.

i sit up my head pounding and i grab my medicine and take my daily pills, swallowing them down my dry throat i break down crying and praying that just somehow i can live.

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arriving at the hospital and looking like a mess i stayed quiet and more glum than usual which caused will to raise and eyebrow at me and he pulled me aside as the other guys walked in.

"you alright kid you don't seem yourself"

"i'm fine"

"don't lie to me"

"i got a call from my doctor at home a-and"

"it's okay you can tell me"

"i have five months to live"

the air grew heavy as the rain began pouring even harder as i shoved my hands into my pockets looking at the cold concrete.

will in shock didn't know what to do and his eyes became dull and loosing the scent of color they once had.

he wrapped his arms gently around me as i stood helpless in the pouring rain shivering and feeling a little better i had at least told someone about it.

"will please don't tell the other guys not just yet because things seem okay for now"

"you're secret is kept safe with me"

i followed will inside shaking from the cold rain and the sliding door pushed open and the three other guys had been waiting patiently and no one asked and we all walked to chris' room.

the elevator ride would have been silent if it hadn't been for phil

"so is everyone all good boys?"

everyone's head basically shook up and down which seemed to annoy phil

"nice conversation"

the grey doors slid open with a thud as we made our way to the room, i turned the knob and saw chris quietly sitting on his bed reading a book.

once the door had opened chris had closed the book and set it down, he weakly stood and hugged everyone as we helped gather his things leaving all the painful and sad memories behind.

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making our way back to the hotel we packed up all of our belongings heading to the next location of the tour with new adventures up ahead.
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ew this is so bad & short i apologize plz don't be mad