Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Twenty Four

i jumped to my feet as fast as i could and i tackled guy to the floor just as he was about to put the pills down his throat.

his face was pale and blank and he was in shock and  frequently shaking and shivering as he stares at nothing.

"guy please talk to me please"

"r-reese i can't do this anymore please stop"

"b-but guy"

"reese just let me be please i have to do this because i just have to"

"no you don't guy"

he cried looking at his pill bottle which now was completely empty and he sighed flopping onto his bed

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my eyelids felt so heavy but i woke up in a bed and i looked over my shoulder to see the stars painted in the sky, i looked over my other shoulder to see guy passed out on the bed next to mine and i looked down to check my phone.

willy: guys it's chris he's fully awake rn please come quick

jonny boi: wait how's he doing? is he okay? when will he be released? other than that i'm on my way and i'll be there asap

willy: jonny chill out for a hot second, other than that he woke up crying but he's doing fine for now and i'll see you soon

i turned off my phone feeling my stomach grumble and i was starving

i slid the sheets off and got up and tapped guys shoulder lightly and he turned and opened his eyes.

"what's happening?"

"i need food and chris is awake"

color began flowing back into his cheeks and he jumped out of bed immediately like he was a totally different person and i wasn't sure how to feel

"okay i'll be honest with you but you have to promise to not laugh at me"

"but, i miss the old band like it was years ago when no one received hate comments, not feeling depressed and everyone could talk to each other about everything without any issues"

"guy why would i laugh at that, I understand what you mean"

"and i miss it when i was having the time of my life but now i feel empty and depressed"

"what do you mean?"

"before chris's incident we had a fight and he was saying thing he's never said before and i don't remember how it started but i feel like if he dies it'll be my fault but now that he's awake he won't ever speak to me ever again and i hate myself for his mess"

"oh guy arguments happen, even the best of friends it happens i'm sure it must have been a misunderstanding or something you'll forgive one another"

"but he won't chris hates me"

"he doesn't hate you and now he's awake and we're going to see him okay let's go"

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we arrived at chris's room, he talked with jonny who sat in a chair next to him and will was reading a book in the corner of the room.

everyone turned to see us and jonny and will had gotten to their feet while chris's face had turned a light shade of pale.

"can i talk to chris for a minute?" guy asked and everyone else agreed and walked out of the room.

i sat on the end of the bed feeling absolutely awful i couldn't even look at chris because i knew how angry he must have been with me

"guy it was my fault, i got personal and i never meant it to be like that which i deserved to be yelled at and i felt sorry that's why i did what i did because it really was my fault not yours"

i made eye contact with the british man and he really meant it, his eyes were pale and his scars were dim.

"i'm sorry that i started all of this i-i never wanted it to happen and i really shouldn't have said anything at all"

i sat alone inside of my dressing room not wanting to be bothered and i felt sad as i always had nothing's changed.

a figure walked inside of the room and it had been chris "guy you alright mate? you seem kinda down lately is everything okay?"

"everything is great" i snarled sarcastically

"guy what's really the problem here?"

"chris just go away like they all do, it doesn't matter i'm fine"

"you're not fine" he whispered and plops down next to me

"please just leave me alone, i already hate me and i hate the fact you're talking to me right now because instead you just decide we're never going to see each other again what because you make the most money and can obviously live wealthy in your giant house, beautiful children and everything else because we're not good enough for you anymore"

he furrowed his eyebrows "guy what do you mean i don't want to split I just think it's time it all comes to an end and there's no way i make more money then you do, just stop acting like a fool it's really
not helping i'm going through a divorce and i have problems like you"

"but you don't understand nor will you go away like how hard it is, why don't you just go and spread some stupid happy love somewhere else i don't need it or you just go away my god"

"at least i have the fans and everything else then guy because you're right i don't need you and what if i just break the band up now because of you" he shouts in my face

"chris you don't realize i'm depressed and i cannot keep up with all of this"

"good for you, what i really think is that you should stop complaining and being sad because this is a happy band and it's not all about you and yourself like don't you realize that you're so dramatic and make a huge deal out of everything"

"how about i just go and die like everything will be alright"

"not if i do first because really these people wouldn't be anything without me"

"fine do it i dare you I doubt you even understand what it's like to hate yourself"

he rolls up his sleeves showing me his bloody wrists and i gasp trying to apologize but he was already gone and it was all my fault.

i get closer to chris and i wrap my arms around him feeling so terrible but so happy to see that he was doing okay for now.

we both started crying and we eventually forgave one another as i dried our tears away the other guys we're allowed back inside.

maybe things would now be okay

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