Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Twenty

(MATCHBOX TWENTY YAY jk I'll leave)

I swear I felt my heart stop beating and I feel my legs begin to shake and I stand up weakly and every step is painful.

The nurse had spoke and she said that Phil had died for five minutes but they were able to revive him and he's most likely not going to make it much longer.

Guy stands up and wraps his arms from behind me from keeping me going farther and I'm crying and it's like my screams are muted.

I break Guy's grip and I sprint to the elevator as fast that my legs could actually handle and I felt my vision cutting in and out like a camera would blur but then it would become clear.

The elevator doors slid open and I hopped inside and I clicked the floor button and seconds later the doors slid open with a clank sound and I ran to find Phil.

I find the familiar door where I had been hours before and I grasped the handle and stopped for a moment as I had to catch my breath.

I felt like my eyes were made of glass and I looked through the glass window as clear that I could see Phil laid perfectly still as casts and bandages ran up and down his body from head to toe.

I extended my pale fingers onto the handle and I pulled it down and the door opened calm with a small squeak and I pushed it open and I walked in and shut it behind me.

I immediately cried again slouching while walking over to Phil I pulled over one of the chairs from the corner of the room and I quietly put the chair in the location I wanted it and I sat down as if it were slow motion.

His heart rate had been growing slower second by second and it echoed and I bit my lip praying that the line wouldn't go straight.

I linked my fingers into his soft hands holding his hand quietly made me feel a little bit better but I didn't know how much hope that anyone actually had.

I laid my eyes on his heart rate still slowing but I felt fingers curl around my chapped hands and I looked and saw his fingers hold my hand and I felt a small smile approach my cheeks.

I felt a tear slip from my eye and it ended up landing on Phil's small hand and it moved causing the heart rate to somehow move a little bit faster and almost normal speed.

I heard the door open but I didn't check I just felt an arm wrap around my shoulder and the smell was familiar and I knew it was Guy.

"Will ended helping Jonny get back to the hotel because he was too emotional and the nurse suggested that Jonny and that you also need rest." The Scottish accent had whispered.

"I can't leave my friend, Phil had saved my life and he helped me in times that I can't explain and I need to do the same for him because it's not fair" I had kept my eyes on Phil as a sigh left my lips and I knew Guy had been right but I couldn't leave.

"I'll stay with you because I agree with you Reese because I feel your pain we all do and I know it may never go away and there's always going to be so much pain even if someone smiles at you, you'll never be able to tell if it's fake because if they loose someone you can't actually get over it because it's always there so here's the start of it all" his arm left my shoulder and he placed it into his lap and we both sat and watched Phil dying more and more each second.

I grow scared but a nurse came in telling she may have to take Phil off of the machines if he doesn't show many more signs.

I grow angry and I stand up and just glare at her but eventually I fully loose my temper and just begin shouting at her in complete anger.

"If this was your family member or friend you just suggest that it's okay to just take another human away from existence just because you're a nurse doesn't actually mean you have to right over anyone to tell them what you think is best just because you work here and you think that you can know everything but you don't and I suggest you can leave because I never want to see you ever again congratulations have an outstanding night good luck sleeping from all your doubts that you think about at night" as I point to the door and I basically shove her outside into the hallway glaring into her emptiness.

Guy doesn't say much but he gives me a pat on the back as our cold eyes continue to see as more of Phil is draining away.

I was sure I heard the line begin to go flat as guy grabs me as I feel we're both crying so hard neither of us know what to do except comfort one another because our beloved friend had just died.

Guy strokes his cheek as our tears quietly fall onto Phil and eyelids open as the heart monitor goes back to normal.

As confused and disgusting as I feel Phil had his eyes softly open and now all I can think and care about is that my friend who saved me from my entire life falling down and that I'd probably I eventually  just end my life in a simple manner but that my friend is currently alive I can't now.

Twice Phil's heart didn't give up and he's came back in the same day he's alive was all I could say.
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Hi sorry this was actually awful but enjoy my crappy writing