Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Twenty One

i open my drowsy eyes and i see white walls and silently and gently they come into focus as sun rays stream through. soft window i see familiar walls and i realize i'm in the waiting room.

guy is hunched over and asleep next to me soft snores escape his mouth as his eyes are closed and his hands carefully lay on his crossed leg that lays on the old fabric chair.

his hoodie has wrinkles all over as i can tell he didn't sleep well last night and i'm sure will and jonny weren't much better.

i accidentally cough which wakes up guy and it frightens him to the point where he falls out of his chair in surprise and his soft but yet exhausted gaze meets mine and he breaks out in a small chuckle.

"can we visit go visit phil I want to see how he's doing" Guy reads my face as I'm basically retarded.

"don't you remember that we visited him last night and he woke up?" i ask trying to jog his memory but his face remains pale and blank trying to think what happened.

"we never visited phil whatever happened to you was a dream or something all of it, whatever your mind is telling you isn't true sorry reese" guy sighs fixing his earring which was crooked.

i felt a lump form in my throat it had been all a lie or a stupid dream because none of it whatsoever had been real i felt a stupid tear fall flat onto my cheek and i bit my lip.

i push my messy but yet curly hair gently from my face and i lightly flatten the few ruffles that formed onto my shirt.

i sniffle softly as will and jonny trot in the door up to us, wills eyes were bloodshot and jonnys eyes were puffy and lifeless.

"i ended up getting a call from one of the nurses this morning and she said you were allowed to visit chris but she didn't want to wake you up" will spoke gently.

i jumped to my feet as quick as i could heading to the room where chris's body laid at silence and stillness.

His body was weak and his arms were wrapped in casts as his face was a pure white and he looked alone and dead inside.

i got into my knees on the side of his bed and i began to pray that he would make it through all of this and it'll just go away eventually.

i opened my eyes as i heard the door click shut behind me and it was jonny and he didn't look like he was doing too well.

he didn't say much and he kneeled right beside me and he gripped my shoulder which surprised me first so I turned my head to look at him.

his forest green eyes for full of misty tears like a rainforest kind of jungle and it would rain for hours.

"reese– i'm sorry for what i did you never deserved it and i'm sorry you don't deserve that especially that you're part of the Coldplay family now wether you like it or not" he whispered while staring at the floor and his eyes slowly came back to me.

he had bitten his lip and i could tel he was nervous that i wouldn't forgive him instead i extended my arms and gave him a hug instead and thanked him.

i heard crying in the muffled of the background and i pulled away and got to my feet sprinting to the door.

i opened it to see will and guy hugging each other tight and to see both were balling in tears endlessly.

i had known to what had already happened and my heart sank and i couldn't ever imagine any of these men ever crying.

these are the behind the scene features people don't see or understand like when you see someone and you give them a fake smile they'll never know how you feel.

they don't know what's happening in your life or what you do outside of when they see you somewhere they don't and can't ever understand your pain or feelings rushing through your body at once.

they won't ever be able to see your inner self with all your emotions crumbling down second by second.

no one can describe what it feels like taking your last breaths except you and they would never know why that this happened.

will wiped his tears away from his face he tried to speak the best he could "phil is gone forever."

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Aye sorry I haven't been active my life is chaos rn but enjoy this crappy chapter anyways