A Twilight Story

Chapter 20: Ordinary

A/N: Almost this entire chapter is written as Bella writing in her Diary (the parts italicized). However there are some parts in the beginning and some at the end that are NOT italicized and those are things she is not writing down. Enjoy!

Bella  POV

(3 months later) 

I was never one to keep a diary. If anything, I thought they were relatively useless. But things changed for me, after what happened to Renesmee; after everything we had been through, I decided to continue writing in it. So here I was, pulling out my diary.  Renesmee rested peacefully on the couch next to me. It was surprisingly one of the first nights she actually seemed to be getting decent rest.

I began writing.

I wish I could say things went back to normal after this. That Deven and her havoc was out of our lives, that Renesmee was safe and happy and that the whole Cullen lifestyle just kept moving as it was before. But I can't. Because it is not the same. It is not normal.

We often think that when we fix the bad things in our life, the good comes immediately. But it doesn't. Some times it takes days. Sometimes it takes weeks; and for most it takes months or years.

I stopped, put down my pen and cupped my hands over my face. This was extremely difficult to write about; and if I could cry right now, I would be.

I picked up my pen, and continued writing.

That night, after I left, Edward informed me of what had happened on that field.
He told me that Jake had caught up to Deven, and brought her back to the field to be killed by someone; preferably him.

But, they had other plans. The Volturi believed that Deven should be there's, as she was a risk/liability of endangering the entire supernatural world.

Edward argued. He believed she needed to be gone. Killed. Dispatched. Terminated. Whatever you wanted to call it. But the Volturi would not have it any other way.

Edward said that Aro stated the following statement. "Listen. Edward. You have already removed Renesmee from the area, and I believe that it is only fair that we get to deal with Deven, as she is kind of our problem. If you would like Deven for yourself, I would like either Renesmee or someone of equal power from your family, to come back with me. The choice is yours. Deven has caused enough trouble. Let us deal with her, we have finally found her."

Edward questioned him, asking why we owed it to to him to give his army somebody else. He stated again that he believed it was only fair. He had been searching for Deven for years and if he couldn't have her, he wanted someone else.

Edward had hesitated, but agreed that the Volturi could probably torture her more then we ever could.

She was an evil, vile "person". But she was still a "person". I liked to believe that at one point, most likely in her human years, that she was an actual decent being. Plus Esme would have a fit if we all took turns beating her to death.

When I got Renesmee home, she wouldn't speak. I bathed her, changed her clothes and guided her to bed, yet she said nothing. I figured she was just in shock, and once she saw Jake and the rest of the family, thing would get better. But they only got worse.

Jake arrived about 3 hours later, and immediately went to Renesmee, attempting to give her a hug. But she freaked and bit the crap out of his arm, and then screamed at him for coming near her.  She stood up and looked him straight in the eyes, inches from his face.

"I hate you! I hate you! You didn't protect me when I needed you most, you just let them take me and torture me and do things to me that I will never forget! Now you just want to come back and expect everything to be okay? Well it's not Jake! It is not and it never will be.  I never want to marry you. I never want to smell you. I never want to touch you, I never want to do anything with you and most of all, I never want to see your face again."

That was the most she had said for the next three months. After that, the rest of her words simply consisted of "yes" or "no", and an occasional "I'm fine." But for the most part, she just sat in her room. All the time. Jake kept his distance for a while, we would see him occasionally walking around the perimeter of the house. But he didn't come in once.

It wasn't until early this morning that she finally decided to speak to the family again; we were all sitting at the table when she approached; and what she said we certainly were not expecting.

"I want to go to a public college. I want to have a life. I want to have friends. I don't want to be home-schooled anymore just because you can't let anyone find out about your precious little secrets. You all think I will "get hurt" or "not be able to handle it." Well I am sick of that, I am sick of your secrets and most of all,  I am sick of being around all of you all the god damn time. SO I am going to college and moving on with my life."

Emmett replied with a snarl, "Watch your language."

"No EMMETT! I will not watch my language. This is what I want and I don't care what you guys think."

"Renesmee, you went through something traumatic, but it has been almost 3 months. Don't you think its time to move on?" Esme had stated.

"Yes. This is me moving on." And just like that, she walked out the door.

I closed my diary, as I heard Edward enter the house. I leaned my chin in my hand as I stay sitting at my desk. Edward approached behind me, took a deep breath, and slowly began to rub my shoulders.

"It is going to be alright. It's just a phase. She will get over it." He whispered.

I slammed my hand on the desk, "It's not just a phase Edward. When are you and everyone else going to see that!" I whispered loudly.

"Be quiet Bella, you will wake her. She is finally sleeping" He said through his teeth.

"Something happened to her. Something happened to my baby and I don't know what, but something did and we need to fix it Edward."

"We will Bella. Maybe letting her go to school will help her feel better. Make her begin to go back to normal."

"Maybe your right." I said, as I sat back in my chair.

Edward leaned down and begin kissing my neck. "I am always right." He whispered in my ear.

I smiled, turning around to look up at him, suddenly his lips locked mine.

"I love you." I said

"I love you too, Bella. Now come on, let's go to bed."