The Personal Assistant (FINISHED)

Chapter Seventeen - The Responses

When I woke up it was early, about three in the morning and yet I felt well rested. I was still naked from the events of last night, Matt was lying next to me. We were face to face, he was still sound asleep and he looked so handsome. Quietly I got out of bed, took a shower and got dressed. I decided to see if I had any replies on my message board, I doubted it but worth a see.

The responses were unbelievable, so many in just a day. There were comments from username kissthemethanesky, carleykilljoy1129, mychemicaltardislover, FridayNightHigh, teachergerard, AdriannaGee7991, Bethany Anthony Iero Way, teapartypoison, scarlette-chimera, MCRmyQueenMia and Name of Misery. They all had something to say about my situation. Some were helpful, some were kind of rude and some were showing support. Then there were some comments that had me think about what was going on, and my relationship.

Monster Riot asked "Matt why you do this?" funsized said, "Shiloh better tell Gee, you need to tell someone." JacquelineRiha really stated her opinion, "So light him up, so his ass is on fire." One_Of_The_Fabulous_Killjoys had this to say, "If you don't tell Gee, he won't be a happy camper. Matt is not what you need, it will get worse."

KxssMyBattery, "If you don't tell Gerard I swear to God." Adrenaline Roulette stated I should be with Gee, if only they knew who Gerard was. xKaylee made me giggle when she commented, "OH SHIT! MATT NO STOP!" If Matthew ever saw I post this, I doubt he would stop doing what he does. Although last night was pretty amazing.

McrGirl said that, "Matt seemed nice." Which he was, still is, but then he's not. ayvajade also made me laugh, "Matt you dipshit, screw you Matt." Gerard No Way actually suggested this could be a "Stockholm Syndrome" and I decided I would have to look more into that.

fangoria agreed with the others and commented, "you better fucking tell Gerard or I will." I imagined her finding out it was Gerard Way and she tweets him, he would have a fit. Really didn't want him finding out like that, don't want him finding out at all. Another_Reckless_Killjoy sounded very supporting and caring towards me. "Poor Shy, Matt isn't good for you. Shiloh you need to tell Gerard." Finally the last comments were from username Blood Splatter-Killjoy. She said, "oh Shy speak up, what if Gerard finds this message board?"

That got me thinking, what if Gerard or Matt found this message board? Gerard would be angry with me and with Matt. Matthew, God I didn't even want to think about what he would do to me if he found this. I decided I should reply to them.

'First I want to thank you all for your comments and replies. I know I should tell Gerard but he has his own life with a beautiful wife and an amazing daughter. Matthew may be the only guy who ever loves me, I'm not pretty or beautiful. I'm going to look into Stockholm Syndrome, maybe there's something I can do.'

I checked the time it was close to five, I'd have to leave for work soon.

'As much as I would love to be with my close friend Gerard, it just will not happen. I think things are going to get better with Matt and I, last night he was so romantic and we ended up being very passionate. Maybe I will reply again with any updates but as for now I should stay away, I don't want Gerard or Matthew finding this. Goodbye.'

Well that's that, I got up to leave, checking on Matt once more. He was still out of it, so I left him a note and left for work. It was raining outside, I love the thunderstorms. Something about them were just beautiful. I got to Gerard's, started the coffee and waited for Bandit to wake up.

The work day went by fast, too fast and before I knew, it was four. It was still raining, pouring down really. Bandit and I were watching Yo Gabba Gabba and coloring, but suddenly we heard Gerard shouting. "Bandit, I'm going to go check on your dad." She looked sad, I kissed her forehead and headed for Gerard's office. The yelling was louder and I could hear Lindsey yelling as well.