Reunite

Chapter 19

"A toast?", Christian popped the champagne and watched the bubbles fizz over the top, he wiped his hands and poured the drinks into glasses.

"A toast for what?", He grinned and shrugged.

"I don't know. We are happy so there's a reason to celebrate that, not everyday you catch me in a good mood.", He handed me the glass and we clinked loudly.

"I really enjoyed today.", I stated, I sipped the champagne and so did he.

"Me too, I think the beach was my favourite part.", He playfully winked and smiled once again, was I ever going to get used to him being so playful and happy? I wasn't complaining.

"Another first.", He put his glass down on the side, he licked his lips and ran his hands up and down my sides slowly.

"Always full of surprises.", He moved closer and continued. "I'm really enjoying it here but I can't wait to go home.", I raised my eyebrows and put down my glass, I rubbed his shoulders and he sighed.

"Why are you looking forward to going back?", I questioned, I hadn't even thought about the grey skies of Seattle. I wanted to stay here forever with Christian.

"I feel like we can actually start our life together, If that's what you want, there's no pressure.", I giggled, was Christian Grey stumbling over his words?

"I think we should end it after this break. Going to be spending too much time with you here, you'll soon be bored of me.", I sarcastically stated, I rested my hands on his backside and pulled him closer.

"I don't think I could ever be bored of you.", He half smiled and wrapped his arms around me.

"I really think it's going to take a while to adapt to this side of you.", We grabbed our glasses and sat down together on the sofa.

"Why, don't you like it? I don't understand.", God, he looked so vulnerable.

"I love it. I love you. You treat me so good and I'm very lucky but sometimes I miss the old you.", He raised his eyebrows and finished his drink.

"When you were my submissive?", I bit my lip and sighed, I shook my head and tried to relax.

"I don't miss being bossed around, I just miss the surprises and the unknown.", Why was I blushing?

"Look at me. What's the unknown?", He knew what I wanted to say, he just wanted me to say the words. I gazed into his eyes and he smiled, just tell him Anastasia.

"I miss the playroom. I miss being tied up. I miss being spanked.", He seemed shocked, I held my own hands and sighed.

"I can't. After last time Anastasia I nearly never saw you again, I really can't push you like that again.", I dropped my head, I raised my head and he was wiping his face.

"Hey.", I squeezed his hand and moved it from his face. "It was different the last time we were in there, you showed me how bad it can be and I asked.", He stood up and took the glasses to the kitchen, I swiftly followed him and watched him place them in the dishwasher.

"Last time was no different. I was pissed off and that's how I wanted to punish you, I really hurt you Anastasia and during that moment I really enjoyed it. I'm fucked up, I enjoy punishing women. I want that part of me gone.", His voice broke at the end, he gripped the kitchen counter top and dropped his head.

"You are wrong. Let's make the last one an exception. Just forget about it and hear me out for a second.", He quickly interrupted me as I expected.

"Please Anastasia.", I shook my head and leaned on the counter opposite him.

"Just listen. All the other times we were in the playroom were about pleasure, it wasn't a punishment , you never hurt me.", He looked up and shut his eyes tightly.