poems

I realise

I realise I'm a cow,

I see that now

I realise I'm a bitch,

something I wish I could ditch

I realise I'm messed up in the head,

which means sometimes I wish I was dead

I realise I'm a wreck,

through my thoughts I have to treck

I realise being my mate,

  is something most begin to hate

I realise I'm sick,

sometimes its myself I wish I could kick

I realise I'm hurting myself,

damaging my physical and mental health

I realise I'm a threat to myself,

which causes more damage to my health

I'm slowly realising people care,

which means some will always be there

I'm slowly realising my feelings,

I just wish my wounds were healing

I realise who I have become,

I realise I've become so dumb

I realise whats become of me,

this isnt the person I used to be

I realise I've hurt others,

one of whom thought we were a lovers

I realise I push people away,

but I do that to see who is willing to stay

I realise I'm a bad person, 

I really need to learn my lesson

I realise now,

just dont ask how