My Everything (sequel to Secret) //EDITING//

Fifty Eight

*heads up this book is ending soon*

58

May POV

I sit at the top of the apartment building looking over the city. I found out they have this little patio thing at the top that has a roof and everything. The roof is clear which I find cool.

It's raining currently.

Adam's with me and we lay down and look at the stars.

"May can I ask you something?"

"Yeah."

"Do you think you'll ever be happy again?"

"I never was happy, so no."

"Yes you were." Adam defends.

"In high school I wasn't happy. Yeah, I had Harry, but in the beginning it was hard, I got bullied, my parents hated me, you hated me at some point, and I didn't like living. The only thing of happiness that I had was Harry but when he left for college that changed. I love him, don't get me wrong. When I wasn't with him how would I be happy?"

"You don't think now you can be?"

"It's been three months since April died. And everyday when I wake up I feel how I did in the hospital. Which is horrible. Some days are better than others but I'm still not there."

"How's that like?"

"Losing a baby?" I ask, Adam nods.

"You kinda feel like you lost yourself. You don't realise how much you're missing until you hold the little human in your arms and know that you won't ever be able to see their face again."

"Do you want to get better?"

"Yeah, I want too. For myself and Harry. He doesn't deserve this." I admit. "I just don't know how too."

A://N

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~lauren