My Everything (sequel to Secret) //EDITING//

Twenty Three

{edited}

May POV {Present Time}

My hands grip the sides of the sink as I think.

How did we even end up to the place we are now?

How did we even become who we are now?

I pull out my phone that's in my jean pocket and feel tears pick my eyes.

He was my everything

Now I'm just nothing.

"Hey May." Adams voice chirps through the phone.

"H-hey. Are you c-coming home s-soon?" I see tears hit the counter top making me sick.

"Ronnie and I are at a party so uh not till late." Fuck. "You okay?"

"Y-yeah. F-fine."

"Why are you stuttering?"

"Just tired." My voice is low.

"What happened?"

"Nothing, uh. Enjoy the party I'll see you in the morning." I cover my hand over my mouth so a sob doesn't leave.

"You're worrying me."

"I-I'm sorry. I just didn't know what time you guys were getting home." I lie.

"If you want us to come back we can."

"No." I say. "I'll talk to you later."

"Okay." I hang up and sink to the floor sobbing.

I can't even think. I try to take deep breaths but that doesn't work. It makes it worse actually because I feel like I can't breath.

My hands are practically soaked from my tears and so is my face. "May?" I hear a voice shout.

My eyebrows furrow. I can't tell who the voice is. Footsteps come closer and all I feel are arms wrap around me.

And I know who those arms belong to.

"I'm sorry." Harry says while gripping onto me. "That was the hardest thing I ever had to say." I feel his hands shake against me. "I love you so much, I'm done fighting you. I'm sorry." He sobs into me.

"If you d-don't me-mean it, t-then don't s-say it." I manage to say through tears.

"I mean it May." His hand holds the back of my head and my face is buried into his chest. "I love you and I never stopped. Please don't cry over me."

"Y-you were the only one made me feel a-anything. H-how can I not cr-cry?"

"I'm so sorry." He presses his lips to my skin. "I didn't mean it." I feel his tears on my neck. "I can't live without you May, please don't hate me more; you're my everything and I'm sorry for the way I've been treating you lately or in general."

My hands grip onto him tightly and he does the same. "If y-you don't w-want me any-anymore I understand." My hands tremble against his back. His head shakes against me.

"All I want is you." Harry pulls away from me and cups my cheeks. I see his face is stained with tears and I know mine is the same. "I love you May. And I promise I'll never make you cry like this again. And the only time you will is when I'm on one knee proposing to you or when we watch season 11 of Greys." I let out a small laugh. "I'm done being mad at you, okay? I forgive you. And I understand why you did it. I love you so much."

"I love you too." He presses his lips against mine and it isn't what we've been doing which is fast and sloppy. It's slow and delicate like we used to do.

My hands fall to his waist and take deep breaths to calm myself down. Soon we both pull away and Harry hugs me tightly. His lips touch my cheek and forehead. Our chests soon relax and I let the previous tears dry on my face.

***

I wake up to the sound of rain. I stretch out my legs and itch my eyes.

Harry's still sound asleep. His arm is draped over me and his head is next to mine. I intertwine our legs together and press my head against his chest.

I close my eyes and try to resume my sleep. But the sound of something in the living room dropping and breaking makes me open my eyes as well as Harry's

"Did you hear that?" I ask. He nods tiredly. He pulls the covers off of us and kisses my forehead.

"Stay in here, I'll be right back." I nod hesitantly.

Harry leaves my room and I sit up and pull the blankets to my chest. Within minutes Harry returns. "It was Adam." He closes the door.

I nod. He climbs back into bed. I press my head against him and his hand plays with my hair.

My bedroom door swings open with my roommates behind it. "Are you guys together again?" Adam asks. "Because if so Ronnie owes me 50 bucks so please do spill."

"Adam it's too early in the morning for this." I groan tiredly.

"It's 11 in the afternoon May."

Oh damn.

"Anyways, I'm taking it as a yes because you guys are cuddling." Before either of us could say anything he closes my door and he starts saying. "You owe me 50 dollars!"

I look up to Harry who's staring down at me. "So, what are we exactly?" I ask timidly.

"We can ease back into a relationship." He says while stroking my skin. "Um, take it slow and stuff."

I eye him. "You want to take it slow?"

"Not really." I laugh. "I was just offering."

Harry fits himself between my legs and my fingers play with his hair.

"Do you want us to be friends? Boyfriend, girlfriend, or other?" I ask.

"Boyfriend, girlfriend." He answers and I smile gently.

"Then, we'll work up to it."

"Sounds good with me." Harry leans down and kisses me. His hands cup my cheeks.

I feel his lips travel down to my neck making my heart begin to pound. He sucks at my weak spot making me moan gently.

"Are we taking things slow?" Harry asks.

"No." I say. He smirks and kisses me. His fingers pull down my underwear and I feel goosebumps rise on my skin from the lack of fabric.

Harry pulls down his boxers and pumps himself a few times making me feel even weaker.

"Condom." I say before he puts himself in me.

"You should go on the pill." He reaches into my nightstand and grabs a condom.

"Eh, I won't take it everyday and I'll end up getting pregnant."

"But I want to fuck you without a condom. It feels way better." Harry groans.

"No glove no love." His eyes roll playfully and he pulls my legs down toward him. He hovers over me and kisses my lips.

~

Harry lays beside me after we both finish. Both of our chests are rising and falling heavily.

"That was great make up sex." Harry jokes making me nudge him.

I sit up and reach for my bra but he takes it and throws it off the mattress. I look at him.

"I don't want you to get used to changing so quickly after sex. And I'm sorry for letting you develop habits that make you feel like you have to leave or not have closure in what you just did." His green eyes meet mine. "That won't happen again, okay?" I nod.

He cuddles himself into my back and holds me. I feel my heart warm. "I love you May."

"I love you too."

A://N

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~lauren