Together

Chapter 22

Toby's POV

Later on my dad had to go home to change and call my gran to watch me, he offered to take me home but I said I wanted to stay with her, I need to talk to her, I need to apologise

He left soon after and I began working up the nerve to go in and see her

I finally did and went in carefully, I noticed she was asleep and was about to turn around and leave when she rolled over, clearly not as asleep as I thought

"Ry?" She whispered, having not opened her eyes properly yet

"Uh no, sorry" I replied awkwardly

The second she heard my voice her eyes were fully open, she watched me carefully as she sat up in her bed

"What else do you want from me Toby? I'm sorry I've ruined everything for you, I'm sorry you hate me so much and I'm sorry you hate that your dad and I are having a baby, but I can't change it so I don't know what more I can do for you" she tells me, I watch tears form in her eyes as she speaks and I hear the sadness in her voice

I've destroyed a good person who's done nothing but love my dad and happen to get pregnant, it's not her fault, none of this is her fault

"I'm so sorry" I whisper but she clearly doesn't believe me

"Toby I'm not gonna get you in trouble with your dad so you don't need to fake nice with me" she tells me coldly, I deserved that, I know I did, I just wish I knew how to fix this

"Please, I just wanted to be heard, I wanted to be noticed so you and dad wouldn't forget about me when the baby came" I burst out with and she looked at me in both shock and confusion

"What do you mean?" She asked me, completely confused

"I...um..." I mumble, unsure what to say

"Tell me the truth, please?" She asks me quietly

I nod and take a deep breath before trying to explain it to her

"I was scared, that after the baby was born I'd take second place, I thought dad would be too distracted by you and the baby and I'd just get forgotten and no one would give a damn about me anymore" I started but I knew she deserved to know the rest so I finished off my explanation "and I thought when you had your own baby you wouldn't care about me anymore, I thought you wouldn't want me around anymore, I didn't know what to do, I didn't want you and dad to just forget about me" I began rambling as I tried not to let any tears fall

"Toby, that was never gonna happen, you are no less your father's son because he has a child with me and god Toby I don't give a damn if you're biologically mine or not, as far as I'm concerned your my son, you may not like me referring to you like that but it's still how I see you" she tells me and I think I must have misheard her, she seriously thinks of me like that? Even after everything I've done?

"Really?" I ask, unsure

"Of course" she assures me

I take a minute to take that in before nodding in response to that

"You should get some rest, dad'll be back soon" I tell her, she smiles and nods

I smile awkwardly before turning and pretty much running out, I didn't know what to do, I've been so awful to her for 3 months because of something that I was afraid of which was never gonna happen? What the hell do I do with that? I'm a horrible person, how doesn't she hate me?

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6 more chapters and an epilogue before the ends, are you guys ready? Does anyone feel a little more on Toby's side having heard his argument? Xoxo