Fierce

Chapter 41

Chapter 41
Fool

"Where are we going?" tanong ko kay Isaiah nang mapirmi ako sa loob ng kaniyang sasakyan pagkapasok ko.

He didn't say a word. Instead, he leaned towards me to help me buckle my seatbelt but I immediately stopped him from doing so.

"Ako na." sabi ko at ako na mismo ang nagsuot ng seatbelt sa akin.

Huminga naman siya ng malalim bago pinaandar ang makina ng kaniyang sasakyan.

Muli kong sinulyapan si Gael na hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin pumapasok sa kaniyang sasakyan at nakatingin lang sa amin.

Kinapa ko naman ang cellphone ko sa akin bulsa at agad nagtipa ng sasabihin ko kay Gael. I don't want him to worry or create delusional thoughts.

To: Gael
Stay there and wait for me. We'll be quick. Don't worry about me.

Kinagat ko ang aking ibabang labi nang maipadala ko ang aking mensahe sa kaniya at habang hinihintay ang kaniyang sagot na wala pang isang minuto ay agad nang dumating.

From: Gael
I know. I trust you.

Simpleng mensahe lang ang natanggap ko galing sa kaniya ngunit naging dahilan ito upang maging panatag ang aking loob.

He trusts me. That's the only thing that matters to me right now.

I just smiled and read his reply once again before I kept the phone on my pocket.

"Are you like that when you were still into me?" biglang tanong ni Isaiah sa akin at agad naglaho ang ngiti sa aking labi bago napatingin sa kaniya.

Mariin ang pagkakahawak niya sa manibela at paulit-ulit na nananangis ang kaniyang panga.

"Do you smile like that when I text you?" he made his question more distinct. "Do I make you happy when I call?"

Nang tanungin niya 'yon ay inihinto niya sa hindi masiyadong matao na lugar dito sa kanilang subdivision ang kaniyang sasakyan bago ako nilingon.

My lips parted when I saw how bloodshot his eyes are.

I'll be honest with Isaiah this time. I'm going to answer all of his questions without second thoughts. After I finally explain my side to him by answering his questions, hope that he'll be finally ready for my last goodbye.

"Yes." I answered. "You make me smile whenever you texted me before. You make me happy whenever you call, specially because I know that you're very busy but you still were able to find time to call me."

"Did you ever think about keeping me instead of letting me go?" he asked.

"I already told you that. I did, Isaiah." I told him. "You were on the top of the list of my priorities when I was still deciding. But I realized that I need to consider myself too. Hindi dapat ako magdedesisyon para sa'yo kundi para sa sarili ko."

"Then..." he trailed and sighed, trying to be cautious with his next question. "Did you even love me?"

I small smile escaped my lips and nodded. "I loved you."

He's the first guy who dared to love me throughout my insecurities and flaws. He's the first guy who made me feel loved and special. He never made me feel like he's not giving all his love for me. He never failed to give me time as much as he can. He can give up the world he worked so hard to build just so he can keep me.

Those are only some of the reasons why I fell for him. But I dont know why it still wasn't enough for me to stay.

Bumuntong hininga naman siya at saka lumabas ng sasakyan. Pinanood ko siyang patakbong umikot patungo sa aking gawi upang mapagbuksan ako ng pintuan.