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I didn't want to turn around, I didn't really want to look at him. Every time I did my heart shattered into more tiny pieces. But it was inevitable, thanks to that scheming little Fin. I smiled inwardly. He was far nicer, warmer, sweeter than people gave him credit for. Some girl was going to be truly lucky to have him. It just wasn't me, my heart obviously belonged to someone else.

Stubbornly though, I sat, legs still dangling off the side of the boat, refusing to get up and go over there, I mean, why should I?

"I didn't know he was going to be here tonight" Laura's voice entered my head, as she sat down beside me once more. I sighed dramatically. "Kimi arranged it" I told her, still looking out to sea. "he said Nico saw him last night and explained everything. That he thinks I should talk to him" I carried on. "but after that shit she pulled tonight, what makes him think I wanna go anywhere near him? Even more than I already did?" I asked, this time making her sigh. "I try my best to keep away from him and her and I still get shit. I think I've been pretty dignified through this whole thing and that doesn't count for shit!" I exclaimed, feeling my anger rise suddenly. "I don't deserve this!" I added, feeling Laura's hand gently rub my shoulder as I noticed that then I was actually crying. "and what the hell is this?! When do I properly cry?!" I exclaimed wiping the tears off my cheeks. Laura chuckled lightly. "you still like him don't you" I looked at her with a sidewards glance, "that obvious huh" I rolled my eyes and smiled at her a little. She pulled a sad face and smiled lightly. "God. I never thought this would happen in a million years when you first invited me to Italy" I sighed, trying to pull myself together.

"me neither, not until Nico started talking to Paul about you and I realized he had a little crush" she smiled. My heart swelled a little thinking about first meeting him. "as soon as he layed eyes on you that was his week made" she giggled. "huh yeah, I bet that's what happens every time he sees a girl he likes" I scoffed. "c'mon Vick, you know that's not true. He's not a player, he hasn't been to the Lewis Hamilton school of douche baggery" she said, knowing that would make me giggle. "so what about crazy back there?" I said, my mind going to that silly cow who ruined my whole trip. "I dunno, but there's only one person to talk to about that" she told me. I rolled my eyes. "not you too" I moaned at yet another person urging me to talk to him. Laura shrugged. "no time like the present." she nudged me, nodding over to my right, and sitting alone at the very tip of the bow was the very tall handsome German in question. I sighed like an angry hormonal teenager, I knew deep down it was about time I had it out with him. I just really didn't want to. 

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"You're not contemplating jumping overboard too?" I asked, my voice shakier than I'd have liked. Nico darted his head round to see me standing behind him. I noticed his eyes were glassy, but when he saw me, a small smile appeared for the first time in a while. "not now" he said quietly. I couldn't help but return his expression as I stepped closer to him. "may I sit down?" 

"please" he said eagerly, shuffling over for me to sit beside him. "thanks" I replied, joining him sitting looking out to sea once more. "it's pretty quiet out here, considering who's boat we're on" I said, noticing how extremely quiet Nico had become. he chuckled and nodded. "I see by your reaction you did not know I would be here" he said, still not looking at me. I laughed a little, "that obvious?" I asked with a smile. he nodded, then taking a chance, he turned his head to look at me. "I'm sorry" 

I looked back to him, the first time we had been alone since Amy burst in on us. The first proper time we had had a conversation. It actually felt weird. "I am sorry for all the hurt I have caused you." he looked down to his hands, resting on his lap, I could tell he was thinking of the right words to say. "I didn't get a chance to explain what happened...I wanted so much to come and find you, I did, but then I saw you with Kimi." he told me, looking away from me once more. "I knew then that I had lost you" he sighed, not daring to look at me. "well, now you can explain"