The Fear Of Falling Apart

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Life hasn't been up or down anymore. It's more constant then before, and probably in the best way possible. We've almost finished Danger Days, with only a couple of videos and one songs left to finish. Sarah's been around a lot more, and Brendon's always insanely happy. Pete's been doing better, and Fin reached a million subscribers.

Each day follows a pattern, and you might think that it's tiring or boring, but I'm loving it.

In the morning I get up and shower, spend some time with dad and walk Buddy before Dallon picks me up. On the way to school, Fin, Dallon and I jam out to whatever plays on the radio. The days pass fairly quickly, and music has remained my favorite class. When school's over, someone from My Chem picks us up and we head to the studio to write, work on the concept or just mess around in general.

On the weekends, literally anything can happen. Brendon finally asked out Sarah after four weeks of 'friendly outings', and I've just been loving life.

Gerard was serious about throwing Fin a party for getting a million subscribers, so one Tuesday when he picked us up slightly early that's what we talked about.

"You have a million subs." He grinned, throwing Fin a can of soda.

Fin's face reddened a little and they smiled softly.  "Yeah, I guess I do."

"Don't freak out or anything." Gerard warned. "But I'm gonna throw you a party." I watch in amusement as I tune my acoustic guitar.

"You don't have to do that." They protest. Gerard shakes his head.

"I'm definitely doing that."

Fin smiles a little, and then returns to drawing something in their sketchpad. "Can I help?" I ask Gerard. He shrugs. "I was kinda counting on it."

---

"So this isn't just another excuse to let Gerard trash my house?" Brendon asks with a raised eyebrow. I shake my head and sigh. "Nope. This is for Fin."

Brendon smiles and gets off the sofa. "Yeah, you can have it here." He tells me as he walks past and into the kitchen. "I cant be fucked cooking anything tonight. You want pizza?"

"Pizza is always a good option." I clarify as I follow him. He tosses the menu to me, and I scan over it a couple of times.

"Netflix, pizza and dogs." He decides, picking up Buddy and hugging him. "Any movies you wanna see?"

I shrug, putting the menu down. "Whatever you wanna watch."

He heads into the living room and picks up the remote, turning on the TV. Before Netflix even has a chance to load, the doorbell rings. "Huh. We didn't even order the pizza yet." He says.

"I've got it."I tell him as I head for the door. "It's probably just Dallon or Pete or something."

But when I open the door, it's not Dallon or Pete or anyone like that standing there. It was Sarah, standing in the rain, tears running down her face as she pulled her cardigan around herself tightly.

"Sarah!" I gasp, helping her inside quickly. "Oh my god, what happened?"

In an instant Brendon was there. "Sarah, fucking hell, Sarah what's wrong?!" He asks, wrapping his arms around her and holding her close.

"I lost my job today." She mumbled. "And my landlord kicked me out. All my stuffs in my car. I'm sorry, I just didn't know where else to go."

Brendon shook his head, leading her into the living room as I close the front door and follow. He sits her down on the couch and tells me to go get a blanket. I run upstairs and check through the cupboard in the hallway.

There were no blankets in the cupboard.

So I improvised and grabbed the covers off Brendon's bed and dragged them all the way back downstairs to where Sarah and Brendon sat.

Brendon gives me an exasperated look of disbelief, but takes the covers anyway and drapes them around Sarah.

"You can stay here for as long as you'd like." He whispers, and she shakes her head and wipes away her tears. "I don't want to intrude."

Brendon shakes his head too. "You're not intruding. I love having you around."

"Me too." I add quietly. Buddy walks over to her legs and presses his head into her lap. She smiles a little, and puts her hand against his fur.

The doorbell rings again, and Brendon looks towards it and then at me. "I've got it." I nod, before saying much quieter, "Maybe this time it'll be Dallon or Pete."

This isn't Dallon or Pete, either.

"Tan we finished it!" Frank exclaims, standing on the doorstep, dripping wet from the rain. "Danger Days is finished! Mikey just finished the last mix!"

I smile, pride welling up inside. "We did it."

"Hell yeah we did it." Frank grins. "We're gonna go out and celebrate. You coming?"

"One minute." I say, turning and running back into the living room. "Hey dad. Danger Days is finished."

"That's awesome Tan!" He smiles, getting up to give me a hug. "I can't wait to hear it!"

"Congratulations." Sarah says with a soft smile.

"Is it okay if I go celebrate with the guys?" I ask. Brendon looks from me to Sarah and nods.

"Yeah, alright. Go have fun. You deserve it."

"You're the best!" I cheer. "Bye Sarah." I add. She waves, and I run back out to Frank, closing the door behind me.

---

"To Danger Days!" Ray toasts, putting his glass in the air.

"To Danger Days." Mikey agrees, and we all clink our glasses together.

"I can't believe we did it." Fin laughs, putting his arm around me in a weird side hug.

"We totally did it." I smile. He pulls his phone out of his pocket and takes a couple of photos of the two of us.

"When's the release date?" I ask as we all sit back down at the table.

"November 22ed." Gerard grins. "A week before the tour."

Mikey, Ray and Frank glare at him, and Fin and I just kinda stare. "What tour?"

Gerard smiles sheepishly. "The one I wasn't supposed to tell you kids about just yet. But hey, cats outta the bag now, you may as well know."

I smile the biggest smile I could manage.

"We leave on the 30th." He says. "And we're going worldwide with this one. That means both of you, by the way." Fin stares with wide eyes, and I smile as I fall back in my chair.

"Worldwide?" I ask.

"Worldwide." Mikey confirms. "We've got most of it planned out. We're gonna start in Europe and hit England, Scotland, the Netherlands, France and Germany. We'll be there for eight days total before heading over to New York."
Fin just stares as I smile with excitement.

"I'm coming?" Fin asks. "I'm really coming on this tour?"

"Totally." Ray smiles.

"It's gonna be fun to convince Pete and Brendon, huh?" I ask sarcastically.

"Lets worry about that another time." Gerard decides. "Lets figure out the videos and jam out."

And that's what we spent the rest of the night doing.

Maybe I crammed a bit too much into this chapter. idk.

It was fairly easy to write I suppose. I've gotta write something for a class soon that's less then this but its on a subject I still don't really get. Hooray for that.

Ily guys sm

stay alive frens |-/