Secretly Loving You- Justin Bieber

Chapter Eighteen

Tuka's P.O.V

"Fredo you can't do that!" I gasped, watching Fredo as he tried to return a drink to the wrong place. I watched as he raised his eyebrows at the woman, my hand covering my mouth as I tried my best not to laugh. He sighed, leaving the drink on the counter before walking back to me. "Idiot.." I mumbled, smirking slightly as he nudged me. "Lets get back yeh?" He suggested, taking some of the many shopping bags out of my hands. I nodded, realising that we've left Justin at home all alone, well he'd have Selena right? I mean, she was there with him so he'd have someone to talk to. "Right, you sure you've got everything?" Fredo chuckled, looking at the amount of bags we had. I nodded, biting my lip as we made our way to the car. We chucked the bags in the back, making sure everything was in before sitting in the front. "Justin loves you, you know." Fredo mumbled starting the car. If I'm honest, his comment took me by surprise. Why would he know? And why would he be so cool about it? "I.. Ur.." I tried so hard to find the words to say, but I just couldn't. What was there to say? "Don't worry, I won't do anything.." He chuckled, driving past the hotel. I looked out the window, frowning as I saw Justin giving Selena a goodbye kiss as she walked through the papz with her many shopping bags. "He's conflicted between two people..." Fredo mumbled, driving past the car park we were meant to go into, which confused me even more. "Where are we going?" I asked him, keeping my eyes peeled on the outside world. "Out for tea.." He shrugged, turning a few times here and there. "He loves you, more than Selena but he just can't let her go, until she lets him go.." He mumbled, making my heart sink. 'He just can't let her go' How will our relationship even work if he's got a piece of her with him everyday? If he can't let her go, how could he even have the nerve to love me? "Tuka, he loves you okay? His love for you outweighs his love for her.. But he's too kind of a person to tell her to get lost.." Fredo explained, wiping away some tears that I hadn't realised had fallen. Why was I so emotional about this? I shouldn't be feeling anything, not right now anyway. "Right, how about that dinner aye?"

Justin's P.O.V

*Few minutes before*

"Why are you here? To mess with my head again?" I screamed at her, as she stood by the door, looking down towards her feet. Its almost as if she knew what she did wrong, she knew that she hurt me so much. "Justin, I.. I don't know what came over me, but it wasn't me.." She whispered, looking up towards me. She looked so hurt, so guilty for everything. I saw a flash of the Selena I loved, the one I fell for. But I couldn't go back could I? Not after everything she did. "I guess I was just.. Jealous..." She mumbled, her eyes looking down at the floor once more. It wouldn't hurt to take her back right? I mean, Tuka doesn't even know we broke up so, it wouldn't make a difference to her would it? Then all I have to do is wait, until Selena breaks up with me, until Selena makes the decision she no longer needs me. Right? "Take me back.." She whispered, walking over to me slowly. She wrapped her arms around my neck, her soft lips against my cheek. "Please.." She whispered, hugging me tighter. "Fine.." I whispered, feeling a pang of regret, but for what? I couldn't regret anything right now could I? "I'm sorry Justin but my flight leaves in half an hour.." She mumbled, pulling away from me. Now came along the hurt. She always does this, when we make up she says she has to go, go back home. "Okay.." I mumbled, grasping a hold of her hand while her other grabbed hold of her bags. I walked her down to the lobby, walking her outside where the papz were going mental. "Bye.." She smiled, kissing my lips softly. I waved her off before heading back upstairs. "What have I done?"

Tuka's P.O.V

"Thanks Fredo, I had a great day..." I smiled as he walked me up to my room. He shot me a smile, handing me over the other remaining bags I hadn't managed to carry up the stairs. "Any time okay Princess?" He kissed my cheek softly, walking off towards his room. I unlocked the door, opening it up to see Justin sat on the sofa with his head in his hands. I wonder what was up with him. "Good day?" He asked, sitting up straight as he spoke to me. I nodded, smiling widely as I sat opposite him with my many bags. His eyes widened as he watched me take everything out. "Did you buy the whole mall?" He chuckled, walking over to me slowly. His eyes were full of guilt, but what for? "Justin what have you done?" I whispered, making him frown. He shook his head, chuckling to himself. "I should of taken you shopping, not him.." He whispered, leaning his head towards mine. I smiled, kissing his lips softly. "Tuka.." He mumbled, looking down at me. "Hmm." I hummed in response, still in awe from the kiss. "I love you, only you.." He whispered, reminding me of what Fredo said in the car. 'He just can't let her go' I sighed, running my fingers through my hair. I can't keep doing this, no way. I started to pack everything away, placing it neatly into the bags before taking them into my room. "Tuka, did you not hear me?" Justin asked from the doorway, making me sigh once again. "I did.." I mumbled, keeping my eyes away from his gaze. I can't look at him, I know if I do Ill just fall for him even more. "Tuka what's wrong?" He whispered, taking my hands in his. My eyes started to water, as I opened my mouth to speak. "You won't ever let her go will you?" I whispered, my voice cracking slightly. He looked away, indicating he had no answer. I shook my head, tears falling down my cheeks slowly. "I knew it.. After Christmas? This... This is nothing.." I whispered, pushing him out the door with all the energy I had left in me. He shook his head, standing his ground at the door. "I can't let you do this.." His voice was weak, and his body shook in front of me, but I still refused to look at him. How could I? "T-Tuka please.." He pleaded, making me look at him. My heart broke, as I saw the broken boy in front of me. I couldn't do this without him, I knew I couldn't. It would crush both of us. But I had to, I couldn't carry on knowing he would never let her go. "I-I can't.."I cried, falling to my knees in front of him. I let out a cry, everything pouring out of me. "T-Tuka.. I can.. I can let her go.. I can baby please don't make this hard for me.. I need you.." He stuttered, pulling me into his chest. His fingers ran through my hair, his tears wetting the top of my head. "She needs to do something, so the world doesn't suspect anything.. When that comes Ill drop her straight away.. Baby its you that I want.." 

Do I believe him?

Or should I just leave, and save all the pain to come?

What do I do?

~~~~~ Sorry guys this chapter is realllyy short:L