Secretly Loving You- Justin Bieber

Chapter Forty Four

Tuka's P.O.V

They say, nothing holds you onto this Earth until you've gone through pain. They say children are Gods gift to those who deserve it. For those who need a miracle. Whether that baby was created by love, an accident, or forced, its still a gift from above. Giving birth wasn't easy, none of it was. But I went through the pain, in order to receive this gift, and it was beautiful. As I laid in my hospital bed, everyone surrounding me, Justin and our beautiful baby, who was placed within his incubator, too small to control anything. I wondered.

Was this how everything was meant to turn out?

Was I really meant to have my child so early? 

But then I realised that this was meant to happen, everything happens for a reason. "Bieber how come he's in that box?" Jaxon asked Justin, tugging on his trousers while pointing out the incubator. Justin sighed slightly, rubbing his tired eyes. "When a baby is born earlier that its suppose to, it has to stay in one of these, because its too small to control its temperature..." Justin mumbled, avoiding eye contact with anyone. It was hard, really hard seeing our baby like this, so fragile, so breakable. The doctor said it would be about a month or so until they can release him, until he's strong enough to come home. Obviously for me I can leave tomorrow, but that doesn't mean I won't be in everyday. "Has he got a name?" Jazzy asked, looking at both me and Justin. I placed my hand on Justin's, squeezing it slightly. He wanted to name him Jason, or maybe Joe, I obviously thought that was a great idea, and chose the middle name myself, which he doesn't know about. "Jason, Drew Bieber.." I smiled, biting my lip slightly as Justin's face lit up, a smile creeping onto his lips as his eyes met mine. "Drew?" He exclaimed, hugging me tightly, kissing my cheek before staring at everyone else as they began to congratulate us once more. I couldn't help but feel, somewhat complete with my life, like everything was finally coming together. 

"We'll leave you guys to rest, we'll be back in the morning to pick you up, Jeremy will stay with Jason while you guys sort yourselves out okay?" Pattie smiled, kissing us both before exiting with the rest of the Bieber family, leaving my dad and Za. Dad smiled slightly, kissing my head softly. "I'm proud of you.." He smiled, shaking Justin's hand before walking outside, waiting for Za to hurry up. But he didn't say anything, he just smiled proudly down at us both. Za was never one for words either, so I simply nodded towards him, smiling widely as he left. Justin sighed from beside me, resting his head against my shoulder. "This won't be easy you know.." He grumbled, his grumpy side showing as everyone left the room. "I know.." I mumbled, running my hands through his hair as he sighed once more. His body becoming more and more relaxed. "We'll be home soon, this next month will fly by, I promise..." 

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"Right guys come on else you won't be able to leave." Pattie whined, pushing us out the hospital room, although I was still sore, I only just managed to even stand this morning, but I was up and walking in a matter of hours. I looked back at Jason once more, Justin's arm wrapped around me as we walked up to reception to sign out. "How about when we get home, I make a nice hot bath, we can chill, sleep then come back later on in the afternoon?" Justin suggested, signing us both out before taking hold of my waist. We pushed through the crowds of people, trying to find our car so we could head home. People started asking questions, pushing, grabbing, screaming. "Could you guys back up please? We're trying to get home!" Justin hissed, opening the car door for me, helping me in before slamming it shut. I sighed, closing my eyes as I heard more and more shouting, only for them to snap open once more as another door slammed. "Right, home we go..." He chuckled, keeping his eyes on the road. But as we finally made our way home, we were faced with yet another crowd of people, can't they take a hint? Justin pushed us through, slamming the doors shut, before rushing upstairs to prepare our bath.

It felt weird being home, just us. The peace and quiet will soon be disturbed by screaming, and laughter. Memories and love. A house, will now become a loving family home. I couldn't wait to make memories, to have such a beautiful family around me. The late nights, the family activities, Christmas's, birthdays, the Easter bunny. I couldn't wait. After going through the pain, trying to be with Justin, people bringing us down, we finally have the comfort, the love, the family and the happiness we both needed. We finally found our forever, or life that we were suppose to live. Whether its perfect, whether it gets confusing. We deserved this life.

And now,

We get to live it.

Together.

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As you can kind of guess, I am ending this one very soon:( I knowwww.... I'm thinking maybe skipping to the wedding? Then a few years on from that? Then maybe when they're a lot older? I think it'll give a good ending. I basically have no time to write anymore. I am so sorry that I hardly update any more:L