Secretly Loving You- Justin Bieber

Chapter Nine

Justin's P.O.V
"You know man, I think we just need to relax, forget about girls, relationships. Man that stuff is crap.." Za explained as soon as we touched down in Barcelona. The sun shone bright, the blue clear skies and the occasional gust of wind. This place was perfect. The sandy beaches, huge swimming pools. If I ever get the chance to live somewhere else when I'm done, I'm moving here, straight out. We got trough the airport, renting our own car before making our way to the hotel, to drop off our bags. The hotel was massive. A whole lot bigger than I thought it would be. It was paradise for sure. "Let's go.." Za chuckled happily, feeling the 'Holiday hype'. It's not that I wasn't happy to be here, I was, I really was. It was the fact that everywhere I looked I saw Tuka. It's stupid, because I shouldn't be so hung up on her, but I am. Through out my whole relationship with Selena? All I could think about what Tuka. So why did I stay with Selena? I loved Selena, don't get me wrong, I loved her to bits but, I don't know. I guess I loved them both. Which isn't fair on either of them. But, now I guess on this holiday, I can focus more on what I want, who I want to be with. "Shall we hit the beach?" Za asked, taking the keys off the lady at reception. I nodded keeping my head low in case I got noticed. I wouldn't want my holiday to be just me stuck up in my room because of the papz. We rushed up to our room, swinging the door open to see a wide spaced floor. The penthouse. The tiles on the floor were marble white, curtains blue and the kitchen was red. It was paradise. We left our bags inside our rooms, making sure to lock up before heading outside. "You know, I never understood properly, why you like my sister..." Za mumbled, shooting winks at passing girls, the occasional compliment. He was such a ladies man. "You know she had that dream?" I questioned, afraid to even bother to go where I was going. He nodded, motioning me to continue. "I had the same one, but she died, not me..." I explained, rubbing my back of my neck as we hit the sand. He chuckled lightly, shaking his head. "All that over a dream?" Za raised his eyebrows. I knew he wouldn't believe me, he never does anyways. "You don't understand..." I mumbled, licking my lips as we sat down onto the soft sand. Why don't people believe you when you say you had a dream about someone, and you fell in love? Surly I'm not the only one who's had this sort of thing? Or was I just going crazy. Thinking it would actually work? "I had a dream about a girl once.." Za blurted out, eyes on the tide, or maybe the girls in the sea. "She was beautiful, blonde with pale skin, she had blue eyes... I'm telling you man she was a soul mate.." We both chuckled as I pictured the girl he was on about. "I've been trying my best to search for her you know.." He mumbled, taking me by surprise. I looked towards him, his face dropped as he spoke. "I won't stop until I find her Jay.. So, what I'm tying to say is.. Don't stop until you get her..." He smiled, patting my shoulder lightly. I couldn't help but laugh at the way he was pouring part of what was left, of his heart. Maybe he was right though. I mean, he has a good point. If I want something I should fight for it. Since when did I give up on my dreams? When did I stop fighting for who I love? I looked around the beach, seeing hundreds of girls. They were in small bikinis, some in mini shorts, or small skirts. Something that Tuka would never wear. She doesn't seem like the type of girl to flash most of her things. My eyes caught onto a small girl, about my age, if not a year younger. She had long black hair, shorts and one of my shirts on. Or a similar one to what I have. I frowned as I watched her. She dodged the guys that came over to speak to her, she apologised and sat on the wall. I still couldn't catch a glimpse of her face. But I bet it was beautiful. I watched the way she carried herself around, how she walked. It was like she didn't want to be here, but she had no choice. "Justin.." Za mumbled, snapping me back out of my thoughts. I rubbed the back of my neck awkwardly, turning to face him. "If you do choose Tuka, I want you to do it the right way..." He murmured, running his fingers through his hair. I nodded, looking out in front of me as I sighed. "I'd never make the same mistake twice"---------------

"Aye Justin you ready?" Of course, it wouldn't be a holiday if there wasn't any partying right? I didn't want to go, but I knew if I didn't Za would just pull me out anyway. I wasn't really in the party mood, I just know the papz will say something. Make up some kind of rubbish that I've slept with someone. We headed towards a small club, not too far away from the hotel, at least then we wouldn't get lost on the way back. It wasn't too busy, still a lot of people around. "I'm gonna get some drinks.." I mumbled to Za, leaving him to flatter the ladies. I stood at the bar, waiting for the bartender to serve me. I looked over by the corner, well the 'quiet corner' as people would say. Most clubs have them. The same girl from the beach sat there, her hair over her eyes as she looked towards the floor. I wondered whether she was here on holiday, or whether she generally lived here. Never the less she looked so similar to Tuka. Almost identical, apart from the face, which whom I haven't seen yet. "What will it be?" The bartenders voice snapped me out of my trance. I coughed awkwardly,turning to face him. "Two beers please?" I asked, Placing the money on the table. He handed the drinks over, taking the money before moving onto someone else. I grabbed both drinks, weaving my way through the sweaty bodies before coming across Za, who had already pulled with a blonde chick. I laughed slightly, thinking back to when he told me about his dream. I sat down beside them, trying my best not to cringe at how gross they were being. I thought back to my dream, how I had a surprise birthday at an old club. Tuka arranged it, and the whole family was there. I smiled to myself, as the images of my arm around her waist filled my head. I was protective over her. Everywhere we went. "Justin look!" Za hissed, punching my arm as he snapped me back to reality. I groaned slightly, lifting my head up to see him pointing over by the bar. I looked over, seeing the girl of the beach. But she wasn't alone. There was a tall, sweaty man towering over her. She shook her head, turning away from him. Whatever it was, he didn't get the message, and followed her gaze to the other side. She pushed him away, standing from her place. She turned around, looking around the room for help as he grabbed her arm. That's when I saw her face. It was Tuka, all this time. As anger boiled through me I shot up from my seat, storming over to her. "I suggest you let go.." I hissed towards the man, a smug look on his face as he pulled Tuka towards him even more. She tried to pull away, not turning to look at me. "And who are you?" He asked, smirking slightly as his hands traveled further down her back. That's what sent me over the edge. My fist flung towards his face, knocking him backwards, letting go of Tuka. She stumbled backwards, falling against my chest. "Steady there..." I whispered, turning her around as the guy cursed and walked off. Her eyes widened, as they met mine. I smiled slightly, squeezing her hips. "Justin I-" she couldn't find the words to say. Her hands found my face, stroking my cheeks. "Thank you..."


Tuka's P.O.V
I wasn't expecting Justin to be here. At all. I was shocked, the way he came out of nowhere as stopped that, creep from taking me. God knows what would of happened. "Let me take you back?" Justin suggested, grasping my hand in his. I nodded slightly, still shook up from what happened. He walked me over to one of the corners, patting this guy on the shoulder. He lifted his head, showing his face, his eyes widened as they looked at me. "Za..." I gasped, pushing the girl off him before hugging him tightly. He chuckled at my actions, rubbing my back softly. "Justin taking you back?" He asked, raising his eyebrows between the two of us. I nodded, biting my lip to stop myself from blushing. But it never seems to work. I kissed Za's cheek, taking hold of Justin's hand before walking out the club. It was colder outside. Not too cold but enough to bring goose bumps to your skin. "What hotel are you staying at?" Justin asked, breaking the silence. I nodded towards the huge hotel. It was really big inside, very posh. I didn't pay for it of course, scooter insisted to pay for the hotel at least. God knows why he chose this one . Justin smirked, his eyes full of love. Something I've never seen in reality before. Most of the time I look into them, and they're full of pain or guilt. "That's where I'm staying.." He smiled, kissing my temple as we walked inside. I don't know why, but this felt normal, not awkward, or wrong. But normal. "What room are you?" He asked as we made our way to the stairs. "57?" I mumbled, looking down at our intertwined hands. It sent shivers down my spine, as I realised that he's actual holding me. Like a snap back to reality? "Get your stuff, stay in the penthouse with us?" Justin suggested as I got my keys out. I unlocked the door, allowing Justin to go through first. Of course, I didn't really spend a lot of time unpacking my stuff, so I left it all in my case. "Ready?" He chuckled, struggling to hold on to all my bags. I rolled my eyes playfully, taking a few of the bags, in which he protested against it. We walked up the stairs, towards the huge door at the end of the corridor. Justin opened the door slowly, revealing the most beautiful room I've ever seen. It was like heaven. "Do you wanna stay in my room? Ill sleep on the sofa?" Justin offered, walking into what I assume was his room. I felt bad at the fact that he wouldn't stay in the same room as me. I sat on the edge of the bed while Justin searched the room for another pillow. "You don't have to..." I sighed, running my fingers through my hair as he stopped in front of me. "You sure?" He raised his eyebrows, waiting for me to reply. I nodded slowly, standing up from my seat before kissing his cheek softly. "I'm gonna go shower..." I whispered, heading towards the bathroom. Maybe staying with Justin wouldn't be such a bad thing. Maybe it'll help us understand each other. If I'm being honest, all I've thought about since I left to come here was him. If we do this, and we date. We have to do it the right way. Maybe that's why scooter chose this hotel. What if he knew Justin would be here, and he wanted us to sort it out? Maybe.
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"So, what's your best childhood memory?" I asked Justin, as we laid on our backs. It was about 3 in the morning, and none of us could sleep. We were too hyped at the fact that we were both here, together. "Urm, probably, going skating with Ryan and Chaz. You know the freedom of it?" He explained, sighing quietly. I knew he didn't want me to hear it, but I did. I know he misses his family, his friends and freedom. It's hard growing up. It's even harder growing up in front of the media, fans and haters. You have so many thing you gotta stand up to. So many expectations and the second you do something wrong they're all over you like bees. "What's yours?" He asked, running his hands up and down my arms. I groaned slightly, trying to remember anything good. "Having friends..." I whispered, feeling a tear hit my eye. It's been ages since I've had a friend like Justin. I did have loads of friends as a kid, I was a popular kid. But the second Za got famous, that was it. Everyone turned against me and I got bullied, a lot. So I ended up getting home schooled, and I guess I've never had a friend since. "You have me..." He whispered, his breath hot against my face. I felt warm against him, like I was at home. "I know..." I whispered back, trailing the ink on his chest. His hand covered mine, stopping my movements. "Come on a date with me tomorrow?" He asked, making my heart flutter. I never thought he'd even ask me. "Okay.." I squeaked quietly, feeling his hand squeeze my hips. It's moments like these that I will hold onto for the rest of my life. "Justin?" I asked, looking up towards him. He hummed in response, his eyes closing slowly. "If we do this... We do it the right way okay? No rushing, no arguments. We know what happens if we do anything wrong.." I mumbled, my eyes slowly giving up on me. He hummed again, kissing the top of my head. "Go sleep.." -----------------


Justin's P.O.V
I fluttered my eyes open, seeing Tuka's head laid on my chest. I smiled to myself, thinking of everything that happened yesterday. "Tuka.. Baby..." I whispered, blushing at the nickname that rolled off my lips. She stirred for a second, fluttering her eyes open, looking up towards me. "Morning..." She slurred sleepily, rolling over before falling off the bed. I gasped slightly, peering over the side, trying my best to hold in a laugh. When I realised she was okay, and laughing aloud, I joined in, helping her back on. "I'm going for a shower..." She breathed, getting off the bed carefully before skipping into the bathroom. I chuckled lightly, ruffling my hair before heading towards the kitchen to make a cup of tea. "Good night mate?" I chuckled, watching as Za tried to lift his head off the counter. He groaned in response, sliding down the side of the counter. I shook my head playfully, filling the cups with tea before adding milk. My head shot up towards the door, as Tuka walked through, in high waist shorts and a 'Bieber' belly top, with a best top underneath. I smirked at the site, handing her the tea. She smiled widely, kissing my cheek before carefully skipping towards the sofa. "She stayed?" Za whispered from the floor, he was still holding his head in his hands. "Yeh, nothing happened though, we just talked.." I sighed happily, sitting beside him, handing him my tea. He took a sip, leaning his head backwards. "She really likes you... Don't take advantage..." He warned, chuckling afterwards but soon regretting it. I laughed at him, the fact that he drunk so much he couldn't hold his head up. "Well I have a date to plan, keep her busy..."

Tuka's P.O.V
"What time is Justin coming back from...?" I asked, still unaware as to where Justin was, or what he was doing. Last night was the first time in a while I've ever felt so close to someone. I've told Justin things I dread to even tell my brother. Things that have happened with mark, past relationships. But then he's told me things, things that are so heartbreaking. "He's organising something for charity, and about 5 ish for your date..." Za explained, feeling some what better than before. "Teenage heart throb Justin Bieber dating again? Bieber was spotted walking home with best friends sister, Bieber's main dancer, Tuka just a few days after Selena Gomez was spotted holding hands with Harry styles. Is Jelena out the way? Is it time for Tustka?" I rolled my eyes at the telly, Za bursting out with laughter as he heard the ship name. I flicked over the channel, trying to find something else that doesn't involve Justin. "Tuka?" Za mumbled, making me turn to him. "Yes?" I asked sweetly, feeling my brother tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. "Promise you won't let him hurt you?" He pleaded, making my heart swell. "I promise.." ----------------

"Tuka, Justin's here!" Za shouted from outside Justin's bedroom door. I looked in the mirror once more, straightening out my dress before opening the door. Za smiled widely, kissing my cheek before walking me over to the door. "Back at 10.." Za warned jokingly. We rolled our eyes, laughing at his actions. Justin took hold of my hand, walking me through the hotel. I couldn't help but feel excited about the whole thing. I had no idea where we were going, or what he had planned. We walked up to the beach, the sun setting in the background. It took a while to realise it was only me and Justin on the beach. "We're having dinner on the beach..." He whispered, walking through the sand. I frowned slightly, looking up to see a table, with candles around it. I gasped at the sight, looking up towards Justin who just shrugged. I was still amazed at how he did this as we sat down. "Spaghetti?" Justin smirked, pulling the lids off our plates. I blushed at his gesture, tucking in almost straight away. "This is amazing Justin, did you make it?" I asked, placing another fork full into my mouth. "Yeh I did.." He chuckled, blushing. It was perfect, the way he put so much effort into it. As we finished our food, we walked further down the beach, candles guiding us up to a blanket. It had a bowel of strawberries and cream. I couldn't help but chuckle at how cliche it was. "This is... Amazing thank you.." I whispered in awe as we sat down beside each other. Justin shrugged beside me, kissing my temple. "I want to show you how serious I am about wanting this..." He explained, taking a strawberry, covering it in cream before placing it into my mouth. We both had a laugh, and shared glances. "Watch out for the fireworks.." Justin whispered beside me, pointing out towards the sea. I frowned, looking up at the seat front. As I was about to say why, a few fireworks set off into the air. Exploding into words. I gasped, covering my mouth as I read 'I love you' I turned back to Justin, seeking him smirk at my reaction. I couldn't stop myself any longer. I crashed my lips against his, running my fingers through his hair. "I love you too..."