The Bucket List [#Wattys2018]

Chapter Twenty Six: I Didn't Want To Be Saved

"I wish that you were here, or I was there, or we were together anywhere."
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One of the doctors walked in while me and Liam were still crying. She cleared her throat so we could acknowledge her presence.

I step away from Liam, feeling a coldness submerge my body. He's my only friend I have left. And now we have to rely on each other.

"We don't know if the baby will make it." She told us finally after what seemed a long hour of silence.

I felt a jolt run through my body. Baby.

I look over at Liam, whose eyes are wide with shock.

Amy was pregnant!?

The roller coaster sickness, the pregnancy stick, it all made sense now. I thought she said she was on her period though when we were in Hollywood? No.. she was covering up.

Then I suddenly realized that she had started wearing oversized hoodies, and sweatshirts.

Why keep it a secret?

"B..b..baby??" Liam finally spoke, his voice barely came out.

The Doctor nodded.

Then she handed me a note.

"It's from Amy to you." She said, and then she left the room.

Liam came over to me.

"Amy was pregnant, how did I not notice!? I lost her and now I might lose the only thing left of her!" Liam was sobbing again.

I didn't know what to say.

I hug Liam again but I know it won't help.

I pull away so I can read her letter, my hands are shaking, I'm scared that I'm going to rip it.

"Dear Amanda, if you're reading this, then I'm dead, And wipe that tear off your face, I had a good life. I was happy, no reason to cry. I'm not really gone, I'm still in your heart. Tell Liam that he can find love again, that I wasn't the only fish in the sea. And oh my dear sweet Amanda, continue your bucket list, start living, fall in love, don't be scared, and get off your lazy butt. Just because I'm gone doesn't mean you can't have fun. I'm gonna be by your side every step of the way. I love you Amanda, and for me, have fun. -Love Amy"

I couldn't have fun. Not without her. My sunshine is gone.

"Liam Nelson?" Liam jumped besides me. "May we talk to you outside?" He followed the doctor out into the hall.

And I was left to cry and scream in the darkened, empty, mint colored room.
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When I walked back into my apartment room, memories hit me, like a thousand knives, stabbing me repeatedly.

"Paul...stop."

NOOOOOO

My knees grow weak and I hit the pale carpet.

"Amanda, thank you." Amy thanked me out of the blue. "For what?" "For caring about me. You're the only who who cares about me." I stopped walking and stood in the middle of the hallway, shocked. Everyone cared about Amy, she was a walking ray of sunshine, you could just see that when she walked by someone, that their bad day would instantly turn into a great day. Steve loved Amy, I loved Amy, everyone at school loved Amy, teachers, strangers, everyone....everyone except her dad.