Always and Forever

14 - Intimate Feelings

Janet

When I got home after dinner at Toni's house, I was still in complete utter shock at Toni confessing  everything out in the open in front of her family. I didn't expect it, but now that  I'm putting the pieces together. I should have seen it coming, Toni had expressed to me that she was tired of having to hide our relationship, and I could tell that it was taking a toll on her. Even though I didn't think it was a big deal, I loved her regardless of what people thought.  But Toni just has to make a point, and she did that tonight.
I had showered, and got ready for bed like I usually did but this time I wasn't sure if I should call Toni's house to say goodnight...or not, after what just happened. But I told her to call me if she could, so I was hoping that the phone would ring. But I waited up for about an hour, and I hadn't gotten a call so I ended up falling asleep. And when I woke up the next morning, I was feeling some type of way. Unexpectedly being put on the spot at dinner with Toni's family then, not hearing from her like the usual made me feel some way. I got up and I got ready to start my day hoping that I would hear from Toni before I left to go to rehearsals. I had just finished eating my breakfast when the house phone rang. I almost knocked over the chair how fast I jetted out of it, to get to the house phone. When I answered it, and heard Toni's voice. I sighed, and I smiled. I was so happy to hear her voice, in a more calm yet sad tone. Despite that I was happy to hear from her.

"Hey, I missed you."

"I missed you too, I was gonna call you last night but I decided to just talk to you in the morning."

"It's okay, I was in my feelings a little bit. But I'm glad to hear your voice, and to know your okay. How's everything over there?" I asked as I lean against the wall.

"Yes I'm fine, I appreciate that. And as far as everything over here. I would rather talk to you about that face to face. Can we meet up at the park down the street?"

When Toni said that my heart sinked I was hoping it wasn't anything too bad. "Okay...sure. Want me to leave now?" I asked as I glanced at my watch, it was almost ten.

"Yes I'll leave the house as soon as we hang up, I really need to see you right now." She said and then we both hung up, and agreed to meet at the park. It was walking distance, being that it was the neighborhood park. So I walked there, and as soon as I was approaching the sand,  I saw Toni walking from the other side of the street. We met up, and immediately hugged and kissed when we saw each other. When we softly pulled say she smiled at me.

"It's so good to see you, even though I just saw you last night." Toni said as we held each other, she looked so cute in her sweater and jeans. Hair pulled back into a ponytail with that smile just dashing. She instantly boost my mood.

"Good to see you too baby...lets go sit." I said as I grabbed your hand and led you to the table. We sat down and just faced each other.

"Okay so what did you want to talk to me about?" I asked as I rubbed up and down my thighs.

"Well I wanted to talk to you about what my parents talked to me about once you left, and my mother gave me her real reaction. They aren't exactly mad at the fact that I'm a lesbian, but they didn't like the fact that I hid it from them, and how I went about things. And now things are going to be a bit different, their going to be even more strict on me now. So all the outings, and fun dates may happen less now." She said as she was holding my hands in hers. She looked royally disappointed, and I was starting to think maybe I should have just kept my mouth shut. But then I would have still felt some type of way about hiding things. And I didn't want to live like that, so I told it all.