Accidentally in Love (Glee & Ryder Lynn Fanfiction)

Chapter 15

Jade's POV

I'm sitting down in front of a table in the library with my biology book around me. It's been three days, Ryder and I are kind of having a bad rough relationship. I just dont know how to tell him my fear and my secret. That's all. Even though it looks simpler if I tell him everything but I dont know how to do that.

I exhale and turn my face to my book and continue finishing my homework. But suddenly a shadow of a pink teddy bear hold a stalk of red rose is in front of me. And someone place it right in front of me.

I turn my face slowly and Ryder is smiling at me as he is standing opposite me until he sit down opposite me and holding that pink teddy bear. See? He is always can be cute and sweet at the same time.

"For me?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Yes as my apologize if I did a mistake." Ryder grins at me.

"Ryder.... I cant." I shake my head.

"Why? Tell me what did I do? Did I hurt you or something?" Ryder raises his eyebrows at me.

"You did nothing. I just cant." I shake my head and close my book then take my book and walk out from the library in hurry.

I dont know how to tell him. This is just freak me out and I cant handle that. And he is different and I love him. I know that avoiding him like this is really wrong but... I have no choice.

"Jade, what's wrong? You dont like this teddy? Okay I can buy you another bigger one. And I didnt give this to Marley. Just tell me what's going on?" Ryder blocks my way.

"This is really sweet but I just cant." I shake my head.

"Is there anything you want to tell me? You can tell me. We have to be honest to each other. That's the relationship key." Ryder says to me.

"Ryder, I...I...."

"Come here." Ryder takes my hand and walk lead me.

I just let my head down and follow him until we walk to the field and Ryder turn his way to the bleachers and sit down on the back row.

"You dont bring any picnic stuff around here, arent you?" I ask him and sit down opposite him.

"No. I know you hide something from me but you can always tell me what is that." Ryder raises his eyebrows at me. "Okay why dont we tell each other secret that we never tell anyone else before?"

"You want to tell me about your another bed sheet?" I chuckle.

"Probably." Ryder chuckles. "Okay, tell me everything."

"I'm afraid." I said to him.

"With who, baby? Did someone hurt you or something?" Ryder raises his eyebrows at me.

"I'm afraid with myself." I let my head down then turn my face at him. "You've been so sweet and so cute to me and all those guys I ever dated were jerks and you arent them. And I'm trying to fight with my instinct and myself. I'm afraid if I hurt you, I dont wanna hurt you so I'm just afraid but you-you always can make feel loved and special but my fear always coming down and scared me." I'm sobbing.

"Do you have any intend to hurt me?" Ryder raises his eyebrows at me.

"No." I shake my head. "But I'm just afraid if I do that one day." Tears slowly fall down to my face.

"Then dont be afraid." Ryder pulls my body and hugs me. "I didnt know that I'm really matter to you until you afraid if you gonna hurt me and you mean a lot to me."

I push his body away slowly and wipe my tears away. "You're special and I know that I'm in love with you and everytime you make some sweet and cute things to me, my inner fears always come to me and scared me and I cant handle that and I-I didnt know how to tell this to you so I kept it but it was wrong."