I would (one direction fanfic)[UNDER EDITING]

The Release

Liam's POV

I woke up on my bed but I don't remember falling asleep at all.

I look out my window and see the sun peeking through. I look down at my body covered in blankets and uncover myself as I slowly get up.

I can feel the slight sting in my arm from all the new scars and decide on wearing a long sleeved flannel to cover it up.

I go to my closet and pick out a flannel, jeans, and a pair of trainers. I lay them out on my bed and go into my bathroom to shower.

I must not have not put away my blade as it was lying on the floor concealed a bit by the rug next to it. I can't miss it though, it's shiny and is mixed of a metal color and my blood.

I pick it up and place it back in its container and place the container in my cabinet.

I turn on the water and strip off my clothes. Once I stepped in the shower the warm water soothed every part of me except the stinging it was causing on my arm. The rest of the shower I tried to avoid water coming into contact with my arm.

As I rinsed off I could hear all the noises the boys were making over in the kitchen and I could hear Zayn laughing like he used to around Amari. It use to be so rare to get him to laugh, especially this hard but he's back.

I'm just afraid I'm going to break him again, like before. I don't want to ruin his happiness but I have to tell him. He has to know. No matter what happens I will still live with this guilt.

I turned off the water and grappled the towel lying on the floor right on the other side of the shower curtain. I gently go over my arm with the towel trying not to irritate it and cause more sting and then go over the rest of my body.

I walk out into my room and start putting on the clothes I had laid out earlier.

As I was putting on my trainers, there was a knock on my door.

"I'm coming" I say.

"Hurry, we're leaving soon and you still haven't gotten to eat." Zayn's voice full of enthusiasm as he can't wait to leave.

"Ill be right out mate" I say as I walk over to the door and open it to see Zayn standing there smiling at me. And it's not the fake smile I've been seeing for the past two years. This one was real.

"Glad to see you happy" I smile at him.

"Yea, I just have this feeling. you know? like its all gonna work out" he says as we walk over to the kitchen.

"It will." I say as I look down to the floor.

Great! now this constant battle in my head if I should tell him or not. I could ruin his happiness again. But he needs to know, he deserves to know, and I deserve what I'll get.

"Ah there he is!" Louis says. "Gonna eat or what?" he adds.

"Yea" I say as I look up to see the island covered with all kinds of foods. Eggs, bacon, waffles, pancakes, and so much more that I don't even know what it's called.

"Zayn was so happy he cooked up a storm." Harry says in between a bite of bacon.

"Since when can you cook?" I ask, turning to Zayn.

"I've always known- I think." He chuckles. "I just never tried cause I was never in the mood to try." he adds.

"Oh" I say. Silently thinking 'that would be my fault.' I scratch my arm through my flannel.

I follow Zayn and pick up a plate and start picking out some of these foods.

After we have all eaten and Niall giving me suspicious looks during breakfast we head out and make our way to the radio studio where our song will release on air.

"I can't wait!" Zayn smiles.

"Almost there" Louis smiles back at Zayn.

"Do you know what your gonna say about the song when they ask?" Harry asks him.

"Yea" Zayn answers.

We pull up to the studio and park. We all get out the car and make our way inside the studio after stopping for a group of girls who were standing outside the window to see the announcement as it was happening and taking a few photos with them.

We walk into the studio room and sit down where we are told. After the song that was playing finished the guy introduces us.

"Hey there London, we've got a treat for you. Here today we have the members of One Direction here to tell us about their new single that will be released today. Are you ready..? here's Liam, Louis, Niall Harry and Zayn!" He announced.

"Hello," "hi," "hey," we all greet awkwardly at once.

"Glad to be here today." Louis says as he sends me a smirk.

"Glad to have you. so what is this about a new single? what's it called?" he says.

"It's titled 'I would'" Harry smiles.

"Ooo, sounds quite interesting. What's it about?" he asks.

Niall takes this one. "It's about a guy who loves a girl and though she's with someone else he's trying to tell her he loves her and that he would do anything for her. It's like saying, he couldn't love you like I would." Niall explains.

"Yes, nice. Tell me, where did the inspiration for this song come from?" he asks.

"Zayn wrote it." I chime in.

"O, Zayn! Is there any specific reason for the song? anyone special?" he asks.

"Well yes. I wrote it based off of the woman I love. She doesn't know it yet but this song is about her." Zayn says with a small smile.

"Who's the special young woman?" he asks.

"I love her very much, I don't know what I was thinking when I walked away. I want her to know that I have never stopped loving her and that this is possible the most happiest I've been just knowing somewhere shell hear this and know..." Zayn starts. He smiles.

"All I have left to say is, Amari Maisonet, I would." Zayn finishes.

"Alright, boys, introduce the song." He commands.

"This is One Direction and this song is 'I Would'." We say in sync.

Zayn's POV

A button Is pushed and soon the guitar starts and the drums kick in and Liam starts off the song.

As I listen to the song air I can't help but think, 'this could be it.'

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