Running Away - Conor Maynard

Part 20

Part 20:-

Conor’s POV

"I think it might be time to tell people," I spoke.

“Conor, is it wise?” Lexi asked.

“I don’t know, Lexi, I really don’t. Like, everyone knows we were at the hospital. Everyone knows we were there with Lauryn, I just think it’s time we told everyone the full reason for being M.I.A.” 

“Con, I know you’re being truthful but are we ready to let the whole world into our lives? We tried to keep Lauryn a secret but that didn’t happen. Now we’re going to tell the world about my ex-boyfriend and rapist taking out daughter.” 

“I wasn’t going to say anything about Braden or Alaina, I was just going to say that I was M.I.A because of some sick person broke in and stole Lauryn because of something,” I cleared up. 

“I don’t know, Conor,” Lexi sighed. “I love you and I know you have to be truthful but shouldn’t this be private?” 

“Can we talk more in the morning? I need your opinion on this before I actually do anything.” 

“Yeah.” 

    Lexi and I were in bed after the whole ordeal. But neither of us could sleep very well. The least wee noise and we thought it was someone breaking in again. I know we were being paranoid but after everything that’s happened, I don’t blame us. My mum and Honor had to pry us from Lauryn’s room. Paranoid and obsessive, great words for parents.

    Lying here made me realise that maybe telling the world wasn’t a great idea. For (1) Lexi’s scared of crowds and I imagine that there would be a lot of paparazzi about, (2) putting Lauryn in stressful situations could harm her and (3) my small piece of privacy would be gone. Therefore, in conclusion, telling people wouldn’t be the right thing to do. However, telling them would get everyone off my back. I’m annoyed with the questions I’m receiving but I like how they care. Ugh, I’m so conflicted! 

“She’s such a beautiful girl, no wonder people want her,” Lexi mumbled in her sleep.

    Huh? She’s never spoke in her sleep before.

“I could kill Braden though, stupid dick head. How dare he steal my precious daughter? How dare he hurt her and then threaten me, threaten Conor and I? Ugh, when I see him in court, he’s going down. It just won’t be for three years this time, it’ll be for life. Stupid, arrogant, immature, fuck face wanker,” Lexi mumbled again.

    Well, my girlfriend loves to cuss people in their sleep. I don’t know if I should be worried or laugh at her mumbling. However, I wonder whom the hell she’s having a conversation with though, because it’s certainly not me. She wouldn’t refer to me in third person when talking directly to my face.

“I wish he was dead, mum. Not Conor, but Braden. He’s caused so much hassle in my life, he’s trying to ruin my relationship with Conor and it’s pissing me off. I love him so damn much, to the point where it hurts being apart. I know he feels the same, well I hope he does but I’m scared. I’m scared in case he hurts me to the point of where I can’t restore myself. Loving Braden and then loving Conor, it’s two different things. Conor’s love feels real, while Braden’s love was as fake as the boobs on some people’s chests. But, still having Braden alive and knowing he could quite easily get out and hurt me, scares me,” She groaned.

    I wish I knew what she was dreaming of, because I wanted to comfort her, and tell her my love is true. I truly do love her, and I want to marry her, to be with her for the rest of my life. Grow our family even more. Let Lauryn have older brothers or sisters. I want that with Lexi, no one else. I know she has issues with trusting and believing some people, but I don’t blame her. A torturous idiot who doesn’t believe in love ruined her life. Led her to believe that he loved her, just to get in her underwear. Twat.