My Equestrian Journal

i been thinking...

So, alot of my friends, me included, have been going through some rough time. Just, thoughts. Decisions. Figuring out what to do with our lives. A few of my friends have been depressed. I know alot of people that have been depressed and not really doing well. I want to help give you all hope!!

"Hold it all together,
Everybody needs you strong.
But life hits you out of nowhere and barely leaves you holding on.

And when you're tired of fighting,
Chained by your control.
There's freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go.

And when you're on your knees,
And answers seem so far away.
You're not alone, stop holding on and just be held.
Your world's not falling apart, it's falling into place.
I'm on the throne,
Stop holding on and just be held."
----just be held by Casting Crowns.

"We pray for blessings.
We pray for peace.
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep.
We pray for healing, for prosperity.
We pray for your mighty hand to ease our suffering.
And all the while,
You hear each spoken need.
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things.

Cause what if our blessings come through raindrops?
What if our healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you're here?
What if trials of this life,
Are your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom.
Your voice to hear.
And cry in anger when we cannot feel you near.
We doubt your goodness,
We doubt your love.
As if every promise from your word is not enough.
And all the while.
You hear each desperate plea.
As long that we'd have faith, to believe.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you're near?
What if trials of this life, are your
Mercies in disguise.

When friends betray us.
When darkness seems to win,
We know the pain reminds this heart. That this is not.
This is not our home.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if our healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you're near?

What if my greatest disappointment, or the aching of this life.
Is the revealing of a greater thirst, this world can't satisfy.
What if the trials of this life, the rain the storms the hardest nights, are your mercies in disguise?
---Blessings by Laura Story

You guys might be a little confused as to why I put those song lyrics on there. It's because there is hope. There is happiness. I've found it, after a long time of searching. I'm finally learning to give everything over to God, to give him all control. It's hard, but km learning. He's out there, and He's amazing. I have this deep joy now, that I can't explain until you've felt it.

I'll stop preaching now. I'm just so happy and I want the world to know.

I might as well let you all know now, that this book will have a lot of God references, and I will be talking about God a lot. If that makes you uncomfortable, I would suggest you do the read the book. It might help, it might not.
I really want to encourage your guys' spiritual growth and life! If you ever feel this joy, you will find that it is about the greatest thing in the world!!! ILY guys! So so so much!