I Don't Care if You're Sick

Ed Talk

Vic's POV

I was leaving this hospital, St. Alphonse, today, Kellin was going to our hospital soon, he still needed to heal from wound on his chest.

I was leaving in a hour so I'd been holding Kellin in my arms and talking about when he'd be coming back.

"We'll both be staying in the hospital for longer since I cut and you did what ever you did or whatever happened to you." He nodded, he was shaking slightly, I moved so I was looking in his eyes, "Kells have you eaten today yet?" He shook his head and I sighed, "You need to eat baby you know I think you're sexy no matter what."

He smiled but shook his head again and I saddened, I hated when he did that to his body, depriving it of what it needed to function.

"I wish you'd eat." He smiled and leaned up for a kiss I moved, "No kiss till you eat." He glared at me then laughed, "Uhg, fine." He got up and grabbed a glass of Gatorade that was sitting by his bed unopened from the day before.

"Babe when did you last eat?" He sat back down on my lap, he felt lighter then usual. "Oh I dunno, maybe two days." I groaned, "That really isn't good for you and plus that won't help you loose weight. I mean sure, you lose a few pounds but when you start eating again you gain weight faster."

He shrugged, "Then I just won't eat." He said simply and smiled and leaned in for a kiss, I tried to move but he dropped the drink and grabbed my face with his hands and kissed me, his lips collided with mine and I kissed back because I loved the feeling.

"You can't just not eat." I told him as we ended the soft kiss, "Yeah I can, I've done it before,
five days." I rolled my eyes, "Then you ate again." I reasoned with my boyfriend but he just shrugged his perfect shoulders, "I can go longer this time." I shook my head, "I can't let you do this to yourself. You're perfect and being thin doesn't make me love you more, it makes me sad because I know what you've done to yourself to achieve it. And you do know that you'll never be happy with the number the that your scale shows, no matter how low it drops."

Kellin shrugged but he knew I was right, he wasn't stupid enough to think that his eating disorder would be satisfied when he reached his 'goal weight'. His goal would simply drop and drop until his organs failed him, his bones grew weak, his brain shrunk and he died. I couldn't let that happen to him.

"Kellin, I can't lose you due to a eating disorder, please, try and get better. I know that I don't know a lot about them, but I know they're life-threatening and even if you don't die from them and you recover it could cause some serious shit like organ failure. The later you put off recovery the worse the aftermath is going to be."

Kellin giggled and kissed my nose "Did you look all that up for me? Just to impress me?" I pretended to shove him off me but he held onto my neck, "Kells I'm serious, I can't lose you to ed." He smiled, "You won't, only skinny people can die from it." I cut in "and you're the skinniest person I've met and I'd never change anything about you except maybe add the tiniest bit of weight on you."

Kellin gave ma genuine smile and blushed, "Really? You wouldn't change a single thing about me?" "Of course, you're perfect the way you are, maybe to thin but still the most beautiful and amazing person I've ever met."

Kellin kissed me passionately, "I do wish I could believe you baby." I shrugged sadly, "At least part of you knows. The part of you that still wants to live."

A/n
For all you who don't know, ed is short for eating disorder. Just mum case you didn't know.