Fighting Feelings

7

Caleb

Nadia was looking out the window and the boys were fast asleep in the back. Luckily Mr and Mrs Johansen had allowed my brothers to stay with us for the night in one of the spare rooms.

I parked the car and when the engine stopped there was just silence.

"Alright boys time.." before I could finish my sentence Nadia smacked my arm.

"Let them sleep," she mumbles before getting out of the car and grabbing Joseph. I looked at her in awe before doing the same with Jacob. We took them to the spare room and even though they were stirring they didn't wake up.

"Thank you," I tell her but she walks out of the room and I knew what I had told her earlier had upset her but I didn't want to talk about the kiss, it would've made things real between us.

"Nadia.. listen.." I tell her holding her arm as she turns to face me.

"Caleb I'm tired and I am not in the mood for another argument," she sighs. Before I can reply Mr Johansen comes out to the corridor.

"Is everything alright here?" He asks looking between us.

"Yes Dad we're good, it's been a long day I'm going to sleep," she says before kissing his cheek and going to her room.

I give a slight nod before walking to my room.

"Caleb..." He says. "What is going on between you two?" I gulp trying to understand were that question came from.

"What do you mean sir?" I ask back acting stupid as I was pretty sure where he was going with this.

"If I hear that anything is going on between you both, Caleb... Nadia is my daughter and I have let you into my home like family don't make me regret that decision," he tells me sternly.

"You won't," I reply. Everyone knows what kind of waste of space I am and that's one of the reasons I couldn't be in a relationship because I'd just end up hurting them.

I wake up in the morning getting a call from Marcel telling me he was taking me to school today and he had to tell me something urgently. Luckily Mrs Johansen kindly offered to drop the boys to Aunt Doreen's.

"What's up bro?" I ask him slightly worried. Marcel and I have been friends for five years. Devonte has been my friend the longest as I've known him since birth his Mum and my Mum were best friends.

"Alright first things first how long has it been since you've been to the herd?" I knew that the herd was involved.

"The last time I went was when I had punched the shit out of Jordan, why?" Which may I just say was absolutely nothing compared to what he had put my family through.

"Alright don't over react but I've been hearing from sources that he knows of a girl you hang out with.... and we all know who he's implying,"
My fists instantly clench because we know he's talking about Nadia. I gulped.

"I tried so hard man.... I didn't want her to get involved in this but look what I've done," I shout angrily my face in my hands. Marcel stops the car.

"Hey man this isn't your fault,"

Of course it was.

"No it is! If I had never involved my self with the herd then maybe my father wouldn't be in hospital right now recovering from severe burns and my brothers would be living with me and Nadia wouldn't be in danger!" I say angrily.

"I think you should tell Nadia the truth...."

"No man whatever happens I can't tell her not now not ever, she'll become paranoid and that will make her more vulnerable," I reason.