A Moment to Feel

What I See.

I look out my window and what do I see?

I see the moonlight shining down unto the sprinkled dew that's rested on every surface, leaving a small sparkle as my eyes wander through the darkness.

I look out my window and what do I see?

I see millions of stars twinkling in the dark night sky. Each one giving off its own special light and warming my heart with every twinkle.

I look out my window and what do I see?

I see a small shooting star fly across the sky while slowly fading to nothing. I whisper my biggest wish up into the sky. I take a moment to dream of the time that my wish would come true if ever.

I look out my window and what do I see?

I see a big beautiful moon looking down right at me. He knows all my secrets, all my pain, all my dreams, all my wishes, and he knows all about my love. He's there to listen to me whenever I need comfort.

I look out my window and what do I see?

I see the empty spaces where there's only darkness and quiet. Where the biggest empty space is right next to me, and it also fills my heart. It's where you're meant to be but your not. The strong feeling of being alone overpowers my eyes and they slam shut as tears begin falling down my cheeks.

I close my eyes and what do I see?

I see you. With a smile on your face, just waiting for me to fall into your arms. Waiting to stare into my eyes. Wanting to hold me tight. Wanting to feel me close. Needing to love me. Needing just me.

But my eyes open before I get to you because I'll never really have you will I? You'll always say you love me. You'll give me the title as yours for only so long, but you'll still leave won't you? You'll never miss me, but once your feeling alone you'll tell me you've missed me. When you feel unloved you'll run to me to hear me say how much I love you.

But you'll never be waiting for me to run into your open arms. You'll never be craving my kisses or be the one embracing me into a hug that should never have to end. You'll always just be that amazing voice at the other end of the phone that I'm so used to and is all I want when I'm ready to fall.

I look at my phone and what do I see?

I see a blank black screen that doesn't light up and blare your ringtone. I see another empty space of my life. A space that haunts me all day long. I wait for your calls, I wait for you to texts back. I wait for anything from you, and every night I go to sleep wondering how you are if you miss me as much as I miss you. If you still care. If you've forgotten me. I just want to know what's going on inside your mind.

I look out my window and what do I see?

I don't see you but I see hope for the future because I know my heart is true and I know your heart is genuine. I know our love is rare and will always pull through and fight whatever gets in the way.

I look out my window and what do I see?

What's it matter what I see when the only thing I can think is...

I love you!<3

~JescaRose.