Batman x Joker What Would I Do Without You

Chapter 29

Joker POV

Later that day Joker started to walk back to his hideout instead of taking the offer of having Batman drive him. He just couldn't bare to to let him see him cry anymore and he needed alone time anyway. It was a long walk back giving him so many things to think about. One thing he knew was... he just didn't want to have Batman leave him.

"I wish I never met Harley... Then Batsy could've been mine forever..." Joker whispered to himself.

Eventually he made it back to his funhouse walking in to find Harley was eagerly waiting for him.

"Puddin!! I knew you would come back to me and the baby." She said happily giving him a hug.

"I wasn't given a choice..." Joker pushed her aside and started walking towards the old room he'd sleep in, "I need to be alone right now."

Looking at his old room he began to cry more, it might have been silly but he half expected to see Batman's master bedroom again and Batsy lying there waiting for him. It wouldn't be the same again.

Bruce POV

Bruce took his Mercedes and drove up to the cemetery a few days later after his breakup with the clown. It was raining outside but he didn't care, he just needed to see his parents graves for a minute.

He drove up and got out of his car and walked up to where his parents tombstones were. Bruce fell to his knees in front of them, he paid no mind to the rain or mud he just needed to talk to the two people he knew would listen even if they weren't truly there anymore.

"Hey Mom.. Hey Dad... I know aren't here anymore.. and I should probably make time to visit your graves more often but... I just really need to talk about something serious on my mind..." Bruce took a deep breath and spoke quietly, "Ever since that night when I was 8 years old and I had to witness what happened to you two in that dark alley I decided I wanted to spend the rest of my life fighting for justice. All I ever wanted was to just stop all the bad in Gotham as best I could and make sure everyone felt safe.. Except now.. I still feel that way but I ended up falling in love with someone who was the worst villain in Gotham... We aren't together anymore but I still love him so much.. I don't want to love him anymore but I do... I only pushed him away because of priorities. I felt like him raising his kid and leaving me was for the best.. I mean it has to be, every kid should be able to have both parents in its life... But why does doing something I know is right feel so wrong... I mean I can't help what he did with his ex before we started dating but somehow I wish I could've stopped her from getting pregnant to keep him for myself... Pretty selfish of me, huh... I miss you both so much and I really need some help... As much as I love who I am and the life I built with Dick and Alfred by my side I just continue to suffer heartache after heartache.. so much emotional abuse.. Disappointment after disappointment... I am strong but is there really a point in trying to be happy when all I've ever known is sadness...I stand for justice and this city but I want to apologize for ever thinking I deserved happiness again after the day you two died... I'm so sorry... please forgive me..."

After saying all that Bruce began to shed a few tears reflecting on his life... As the rain got heavier around him he had never felt more alone in the world than at that moment staring at his parents graves in front of him.