Lately I've been crying
Really hard
For a long time
With no one by my side
My family is used to it
The endless sobs
They still try
To cheer me up
And make me smile
But in the end
My pain over rules
And I cry anyway
I'd talk about it
But the only person I trust
Is mad at me
I don't blame her
I'm mad at me too
Not for the same reason though
She says I never listen
She's right
Just like Sam
I'm a monster
A cruel monster
Self centered
Bratty
P.O.S.
Cruel
Sensitive
Monster
I can't change
Though I try
I can't
I must stay true
To who I am
No matter what
But I relapse
Everything
The day I pulled a knife
Held it to my throat
If not for my brother
I'd be dead
He told my mom
I was in therapy for months
Maya doesn't know this
Until now
No one did but my family
I was 3 when that happened
I was clueless
I treated life as a toy
Looking back from today
I wish my brother hadn't been there
Maybe then people could stop
Tormenting
Bullying
Harassing
Teasing me and my friends
Then I wouldn't have friends
It wouldn't have affected too many lives
Everyone is right nonetheless
No
One
Cares
Not even my best friends
Or friend
She always teases me
I tease her back
We fight
We make up
We fight
We make up
It hurts
But if I hadn't been saved
A lot of hearts
May still be in one piece
I've broken people
Old souls
Personalities
A whole person
And if my brother had been even 2 minutes later
I wouldn't have done that
My friends wouldn't even care
They never would've known me
Ask a person
If I was never born
Would you miss me
If they answer yes
They are wrong
The correct answer is no
They never would've known you
I sometimes with that was me
The non born child
A child with no chance of being born
Ever
Again
Lately.......................
