Lately I've felt heartache
Usually I have a dream
With him in it
He always looks furious
After he faded to white
I can't see him
I no longer feel his presence
I think he has left me
I think he hates me now
Or does not remember me
That I loved him like my child
Trusted him like... my best friend
Hugged him like a brother
Each night
Before we slept
I place a gentle kiss
On top of his head
In return
He licked my face
We were always scared
That one of us
Would not wake the next day
So we stayed close
Until our eyes became to heavy
Then we hoped for the best
We both woke up every day
Up until 4/21/17
He didn't wake up
Because of me
I texted a guy
He hurt my friends
He said I was a monster
I think he is right
I caused my family pain
And death
With just words
Give
Him
The
Shot
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He was gone..
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Forever
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Lately... I've felt lost
