Lastly I feel distant
I can't focus on anything
Not even what people say
I'm not in my own world
But I'm definitely not in this one
Why does this happen to me
Why do I deserve this pain
Is it my karma
The karma people say I deserve
I can't trust anyone
Not anymore
Maybe never again
I don't see how
Or why
I have my pillow
Closest to a shoulder
I've never felt this alone
Why did it take me so long
To see the pain
Was actually numb
Or just stupid
Makes me wonder........
