Lately I've been healing
I still hold tears back
But it's getting better
I got off my meds
Yesterday was rough
I'm just scared of today
Genuinely scared
I want to be somewhere else
Not home
Not school
Not here
Not Earth
Not Heaven
Not Hell
Anywhere people aren't
If it means
Waiting in a desert
Slowly dying
The so be it
I just want away
Away from people who know my story
But my story follows me
Everywhere
Kids at school
They won't stop
Even if I do ignore them
They don't get what it feels like
To be harassed to tears
I have to be strong
For a lot of people
It's mentally exhausting
I had to stay in bed later than normal
To prepare myself
For how today's going to go
It didn't work
I stood up
Then collapsed to the ground in tears
It was hard
Lately I've been looking
