Lately I've felt different
Like nothing is the same
It's almost brand new
But why
I can't think of a reason why
Why I can't see things the same
Maybe it's my depression
Or my head saying
It's time to get it together
Either way
It almost stings
Roads: grass killer
Bed: worthless junk
Me: idiotic friend
My brother: my bff
My mom: my counselor
It's all different
Again
Yesterday
I couldn't find the courage to talk to my mom
Now I feel obligated to
Why does it feel different
I want this episode to go away
But it won't
I'm always scared to be happy
Because if I'm too happy
Something bad always happens
But no one else understands that
Not even Conner
He's my new Gunner
We meet at midnight
Every night
We talk, cry, laugh, and trust
What is said at the willow
Stays at the willow
That's our motto
Even though the tree we meet under
Isn't a willow
It means the same
He knows what loss feels like
We all do
We may not know it
But we do
If you lost the only person you've ever known
You know how we feel
But if not
You will someday
And it hurts
Just make sure
You have someone to listen
It takes a while
But you feel better
That's a promise
Lately.. I dont know what to think
