Demented

And Right When I Know You're About to Break, I Stop.

Frank and Gerard were pissed at each other yet again. They were yelling and cussing. Something Gerard had said triggered Frank into a rampage of demands.

   "I'm sick and tired of you lying to me!"

   "I'm sick and tired of your constant accusations!"

   "Well, maybe if you didn't lie to me about your life, then maybe I wouldn't!"

  Gerard scoffed. "I lied because I knew you you would hate me!"

   "You should've told me at the beginning of our relationship! Or before that, would've been better!"

  "Oh my God!"

   "Your little brother had to tell me! Because he already knew you wouldn't!"

   "You do hate me because of it."

  "I don't hate you. Don't try to act like the victim now," Frank rolled his eyes. "I'm catching on to you, Gerard."

   "Took you two years."

  "I need to know everything. Right fucking now!"

  "Fine! Do you remember when I first heard you crying?" Frank nodded. "I told you I wanted to be closer to being a human. That was a fucking lie! I don't give two shits!"

  "Looking back at that now...yeah..I can see it."

   "When I first told you about my family, I only wanted your sympathy. I remember telling you that I didn't blame them for not coming to visit. What I said was true, but the way I said it, wasn't. It's all in understanding the human brain, people's reactions, and that person," explained Gerard.

   "My God."

   "You already know that I cheated on my two exes nearly everyday. And I only used them for fucking. But what you don't know is how I ruined them."

  "Fuck. You sick bastard"

  "I stole from their parents and set it up so it looked like they stole from them. Alex was kicked out. I stole from him, leaving no trace. Since Alex was living in a one bedroom house-if you could even call it that, he was poor. But did that stop me? Nope! He went without electricity and plumbing. It was hysterical! He broke it off with me because he became homeless. He was living off of friends' houses. Braden would forgive me for everything, even if I publicly embarrassed him at a party. I would say horrible things. I would worry him when I didn't call him after blowing a line with some friends. He once said to me, "Gerard, I get so worried that you'll overdose. Or you'll pass out and never wake up again. I love you so much, I don't want anything to happen to you. I need you." I laughed right in his face!"

   "He told you he loves you...and you laugh?" The look of disgust hung high on Frank's face.

   "I didn't love Braden. I didn't love Alex either."

   "Clearly."

  "I would do anything to protect Mikey and Mikey only. I would take my parent's beatings just so he wouldn't have to be bruised. I fucked up anyone who would mess with him. If he needed me, I would stop whatever I was doing to cater to him. Everyone else was on their own until I met you. My little baby. I would do anything for you. I'll always be here for you. I want to marry you and have kids with you."

  "I bet you said the same to the others."

  "I never did. I rarely told them I loved them."

   "You're fucked up in the head."

  "Baby, aren't we all?" Gerard's grin was frightening.

   "Not like you though. Hopefully, never like you."