Hurt

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chapter 3 • apology

Are you kidding me! I promised myself I wouldn't have a panic attack.
It was bad not as bad as the other panic attacks but I was shaking and my breathing was short even I thought I was going to die.

"Macey! Macey where are you" I heard people shout my name but i couldn't respond because I was having a freaking PANIC ATTACK!!

"Oh my god! Macey please look at me, Matt go call the nurse or someone!" I felt Ana shake me but I couldn't see, everything went black I was still conscious I just couldn't see.

"Okay, Macey take deep breaths, okay deep breaths" I took one deep breath then came another and another and that's when I find myself calming down.

"Good okay now open your eyes" I cant believe I was closing my eyes I thought I went blind.

"Do you remember your name?" I try to open my mouth and talk when I was rudely interrupted.

"Is she crying?" And there it was again. The arrogant bad boy.

"Leave her alone Alex" Liz tells him. So his name is Alex.

"I just want to know what happened to her" he comes closer and I see him staring at me.

"What happened" he asked

"She had a panic attack" Ana explains but she doesn't stare at him she's just looking at the ground.

I get up and wipe away the tears that have dried up on my cheeks.

"I'm sorry that I did tha-"

"Don't expect me to accept your sad excuse of an apology, you made me have a panic attack which I hoped so much I wouldn't have since today was my first day but I did because of you." my voice rises and he steps back.

"Just stay away from me.. please" I turn around and walk myself to the bathroom.

I take my phone out and dial my moms number.

"Honey how-"

"Mom I want to leave please pick me up" I start sobbing

"Sweetie what's wrong"

"I'll tell you later just pick me up please, I can't be here any longer" I wipe my tears and wait for my mom to answer.

"Okay I'm on my way" my mom says and I end the call.

I look at myself in the mirror and I see a ugly human being, I see myself and my ugliness.

That's when I see Ana, Liz and izzy.

"Are you okay?" they ask.

"What do you think" I said expecting them to give me a dumb answer.

"I'm sorry that was a stu- omg you have a tattoo?" Oh shit I forgot to roll down my sleeves. It's not that I'm scared that they saw it but I don't want them to know the meaning behind it. The tattoo means a lot to me and my past.

"Um yeah I do" I roll up my sleeve and look at my tattoo.

I remember the day I got it, it was because I wanted to kill myself but I went on instagram one day and saw someone posted the meaning behind a semicolon and it was beautiful so I took that and it helped me.

"You got a tattoo of a semicolon...why?" Liz asked

"Yeah, well when I was younger I wanted to end everything and I found out that a semicolon is used when a author could've chosen to end their story but chose not to and the author is you and the story is your life" when I finish Liz and izzy looked like they were about to cry.

"Alex's a jerk you know that right" Ana says she wasn't looking at any of us she was applying lipstick. I wouldn't blame her. That's the kind of girl she is.

"I used to date him when we were in freshman and sophomore year and I regret it he was a big jerk and a cheater he's a player and I don't want you to get hurt the same way I did, he hooked up with a lot of girls when we were going out" she explained.

That's when my phone vibrates and I look down and see that my moms in the office waiting for me. The bell rings for the next period.

"Thanks for helping me guys I really appreciate it I should go my mom said she's here"

All of them take turns to hug me and I leave the bathroom and start walking to the office.

"MACEY!" I heard him the last person I want to talk to.

I turn around and Hes already there.

"What do you want" I say in a harsh manner.

"Feisty I like that" I roll my eyes and keep walking.

"Fuck off Alex your just a jerk" he holds my wrist and I flinch.

"Ana told you didn't she" his face looks like he was about to kill someone.

"Yes she did now let me go you manwhore" I shouldn't have said that because he was squeezing my wrist so hard that it felt like he was about to rip my arm off.

"ALEX STOP!" I try to pull myself from him but it didn't work.

"Don't believe her she's a liar" I didn't believe him. But when he saw me roll my eyes he dug his nails into my wrist.

That's when my wrist started to bleed

"Alex let go of her" I see Matt and cole push him away from me.

I look at my wrist and I see blood I look at Alex and I see his eyes trail down to my wrist and he snaps out of whatever dimension he was in.

"Bro what the fuck you made her blead" Matt says

"Macey I'm-"

"Don't just don't" I walk away and I finally make it to the office I see my mom and I'm just holding onto my sleeve.

I go up to her and hug her I cry onto her shoulder and she hugs me back.

"Let's go home" I nod and walk towards the door when I see Alex I freeze at the sight of him and he stands there looking at me.

"Come on sweetie" my mom snaps me out of my thoughts and I look at her.

"Okay" I whisper I walk past Alex when he stops me

"Never call me a manwhore" he says "I don't want to do that to you ever again" sure he doesn't.

"Whatever" i walk past him and head to the parking lot

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