Hurt

30

chapter 30 • 3 weeks

"Doctor Perez you're needed in the emergency room, doctor Perez you're needed in the emergency room."

This is all a mess everything is a mess. This shouldn't have happened to him, he was literally hit by a car and I don't know how he lived through all that pain. I've lived through so much pain but I'm pretty sure Alex won the award this time.

I see the doctor that's attending Alex, he's coming this way I stand up and get ready for what he's about to say hopefully it's good news, I need him in my life he's the only one that's been keeping me alive this whole school year.

"Macey Miller?" I give him a quick nod and he continues "I have good news and bad news, which one do you want to hear first" I shrug, gosh this doctor thinks I have all this patience's.

"The good news is that Alex is alive and stable the bad news is that he's in a coma" this can't be, I can't break down in front of the Doctor I can't he wasn't the one who was supposed to get hit by the car it was supposed to be me not him.

"When is he going to wake up?" I try to keep my cool but it's very hard when the love of your life is in the hospital because of your stupidity.

"We don't know it's up to him if he wants to wake up" I start to pace the room but that's not helping me calm down. "Can I go see him?"

"Yes you may" I run as fast as I can To his room, god I hate hospitals and Alex knows that he knows everything about me and that's why I love him. I find his room and I stop right in front of it I can hear all the beeping noises coming from inside it's horrible.

I place my hand on the knob and slowly turn it, I hear a click and the door slowly creaks I enter the room but I close the door behind me. I suddenly see Alex he's connected to all these wires and IV tubes and it just brings back memory's of the accident.

I struggle to get over the bed that he's lying on I walk up to him and I gently touch his hand. "I'm so sorry my love" I cried I wipe the tears that are streaming down my face, I'm still in my prom dress and I probably look like a messed up girlfriend.

"This shouldn't have happened to you" my voice cracked and it just didn't sound right, Alex didn't say anything of course he's just lying there. "I need you, I can't live without you." I sat down next to his bed and laid my head on the bed I didn't let go of his hand at all.

"Alex I need you to stay with me no matter what, please you're the only person that I love who's still alive" I sniff, I kiss his hand and it was really cold.

"I don't care how long you're in a coma but I'm not leaving your side" I want him to hear me and wake up I want him to just suddenly wake up and tickle me saying that he was acting and we'll live happily ever after.

"You know what's funny" I giggled "that two days ago when you called me well I called you asking you that you had to go to the ground on Friday but you said you cancelled it, remember" no answer.

"Well I hung up because I suddenly figured out the feeling I've always felt when I'm around you, it's love and it was always love" I giggled again but still no answer "I told myself that, that's not the feeling that I cant love you because one day you'll probably leave like the rest of the people I loved" I don't know why I'm still talking it's not like I'm expecting an answer.