Say you won't let go

Chapter 6

"Grey, I got that amazing case," Derek said as he approached her. She looked at him, questions in her eyes.

"So don't get mad but a little birdy told me that for most of your residency, you spent most of your time in the neuro rotation," he said to her. She furrowed her brows, knowing who told.

"Yes. But I realized General is where my heart is," she said to him.

"Well I have this bad boy," he held out the Ct scan. Her eyes bulged as she saw the size of the massive tumor on the spinal cord.

"There is no way this patient will survive," she gasp.

"I told him his chances are slim, but he refuses to listen to me. He continues to say he wants it and he has faith," he shrugged.

"This is crazy," she shook her head, the size was enormous and the position was very risky.

"I know. And I want to see your neurosurgeon skills because I heard you were pretty amazing," he started to say.

"I'll pass," she shrugged. She didn't want to tell him the real reason why she changed her specialty at the last minute. She couldn't go back, it would be too hard for her.

"Oh, I guess you're too scared," he shrugged, starting to walk away.

"I'm not scared!" She said defensively. He turned on his heels, raising his brow at her.

"Prove it," he said.

"Fine," she huffed, admitting defeat. A small part of her was excited, she hasn't done neuro in such a long time. It was her passion for a long time, it interested her in many ways. She was also scared to death, it would bring back memories and feeling for her love.

"Meet me in OR three in an hour. Here is the chart to catch you up," he said, smirking as he handed her the tablet. He left and she scanned through, reading all the details. She couldn't believe she agreed to this, it was way too risky and close to the spinal cord. One tiny little wrong move and he was paralyzed.

She found her way to the lounge where Cristina and Lexie were sitting there, eating their breakfast. She sighed as she sat down at the table with them.

"I am about to do a surgery with Derek and I don't know how to feel," Meredith groaned.

"What kind of surgery?" Lexie asked, intrigued by the reasoning.

"It's a tumor removal on the spinal cord but it is so risky, there is no way it will be a success," she said.

"Then why did you agree?" Cristina asked, confused by this.

"Are you sure you can handle neuro?" Lexie asked.

"I can. I don't know why I said yes, he just kept pushing and I couldn't resist," she shook her head.

"You agreed because you know he can do it and you want to be there to see it happen," Lexie smirked.

"No. There is not a way in hell that he could get the tumor without paralyzingly or killing the man," Meredith argued.

"You believe in shepherd," Lexie chuckled. Meredith furrowed her brows.

"I actually just want to see how good he is, for CJ," Meredith said quietly to them.

"You really want him to look into CJ's case?" Cristina asked.

"Maybe," Meredith shrugged. She was unsure of why she agreed to the surgery. She looked down at her watch, realizing the surgery would be starting soon.