Thats gay dude.. (Completed)

☆ 30 ☆

I couldnt sleep. My mind was racing. Who much do i trust Tom? What if he makes me do something horrible. What if he chooses something thats like an eye for an eye.

I cant say that. Im not allowed to hope he wont chose that. I deserve whatever i get.

I fall asleep at 6 am, not really caring if i wake up on time.

I cant remember what classes i had with him. I think my body is subconsiously trying to keep me from going to school.

I wake up at 1 pm. Theres only two and a half more hours of school. I get up and get dressed quickly. I grab his bear and my phone. I leave my house and start my walk to school.

Im anxious.

I get there as 7th period starts. I go into class and take my seat. Hes either not here, or doesnt have this class. I think its the second. I wonder if he'll talk to me after school, or if he'll just wait till tomorrow.

I really just want to see him.

I miss being able to hold him. He would cuddle into my chest and hokd onto my shirt.

I lay my head down. Tears slip away from my eyes.

I miss how it was. I miss his laugh. And his smile.

All i get is a disappointed look. A frown.

God, i really hurt him. He shouldnt have forgave me.

The bell rings and i stand up, and leave the classroom. I start walking to where we all used to meet up. I stop and wait aways from it. I see Matt waiting there. Shortly after him i watch Edd and Tom walk over to him.

Should i go over there?

No...

I shake my head and sigh. I look at the ground.

Maybe i should go over there...

Before i realize, my body is already moving towards them. Edd notices me before i get there and notifies Tom. They both stare at me as i walk up to them.

"Tom, have you-"

"Yes." His hands are in fists.

I nod and wait. Hes tearing up a little.

"Tord, i want nothing to do with you. And neither do they." He motions to Edd and Matt. I look at them. They advert their eyes. I look back at Tom. He nudges Edd and they all start walking.

"Go get professional help."

I watch them. Theyre walking away. Theyre leaving me. All of them.

I look down at Toms bear. He didnt ask for it back. He didnt want it.

I tainted it, didnt i?

He doesnt want it because ive had it.

I start walking. I think im crying really hard, people are looking at me weird. I cant tell. Everything feels empty and blurred.

God, why was i born?

Wooow, pretty sad business. In the end it turns out tommy boy didnt wamt anymore of tord. Ya boi got ditched.