I couldnt sleep. My mind was racing. Who much do i trust Tom? What if he makes me do something horrible. What if he chooses something thats like an eye for an eye.
I cant say that. Im not allowed to hope he wont chose that. I deserve whatever i get.
I fall asleep at 6 am, not really caring if i wake up on time.
I cant remember what classes i had with him. I think my body is subconsiously trying to keep me from going to school.
I wake up at 1 pm. Theres only two and a half more hours of school. I get up and get dressed quickly. I grab his bear and my phone. I leave my house and start my walk to school.
Im anxious.
I get there as 7th period starts. I go into class and take my seat. Hes either not here, or doesnt have this class. I think its the second. I wonder if he'll talk to me after school, or if he'll just wait till tomorrow.
I really just want to see him.
I miss being able to hold him. He would cuddle into my chest and hokd onto my shirt.
I lay my head down. Tears slip away from my eyes.
I miss how it was. I miss his laugh. And his smile.
All i get is a disappointed look. A frown.
God, i really hurt him. He shouldnt have forgave me.
The bell rings and i stand up, and leave the classroom. I start walking to where we all used to meet up. I stop and wait aways from it. I see Matt waiting there. Shortly after him i watch Edd and Tom walk over to him.
Should i go over there?
No...
I shake my head and sigh. I look at the ground.
Maybe i should go over there...
Before i realize, my body is already moving towards them. Edd notices me before i get there and notifies Tom. They both stare at me as i walk up to them.
"Tom, have you-"
"Yes." His hands are in fists.
I nod and wait. Hes tearing up a little.
"Tord, i want nothing to do with you. And neither do they." He motions to Edd and Matt. I look at them. They advert their eyes. I look back at Tom. He nudges Edd and they all start walking.
"Go get professional help."
I watch them. Theyre walking away. Theyre leaving me. All of them.
I look down at Toms bear. He didnt ask for it back. He didnt want it.
I tainted it, didnt i?
He doesnt want it because ive had it.
I start walking. I think im crying really hard, people are looking at me weird. I cant tell. Everything feels empty and blurred.
God, why was i born?
Wooow, pretty sad business. In the end it turns out tommy boy didnt wamt anymore of tord. Ya boi got ditched.
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Fiksi PenggemarCW suicide, selfharm, drug abuse, sa would also like to preface that this story, if i remember right is fucked but also its not reality, id like anyone who stumbles upon this to politely fuck off if they do not like something mentioned ok, this is a...