Marvel Imagines

Bucky Barnes - Hear Me

Warnings: Angst
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Try to hear my voice. You can leave. It's your choice.

"Why does it matter?"

"Buck... you should know by now."

"What should I know?! I'm not a mind reader, (y/n)."You ran a hand through your hair.

"Just go, James." You saw his jaw clench when you used his first name. His back straightened, and he took in a sharp breath.

"I don't know what's gotten into you, and I don't like it." He turned on his heal and left the room.

Maybe if I fall asleep I won't breathe right.

You lay down on the couch, facing the backrest. Your chest felt tight. You were holding back tears. Everything felt like it was crumbling down around you. Your breath came to you in harsh chops and deep, struggling gasps.

Maybe if I leave tonight I won't come back.

You rolled off the couch and made your way to your bedroom. You threw a few necessities into a duffle bag and ran outside. You hailed a taxi, heading for Stark Tower.

As soon as you paid the cabbie, you ran for the elevator and made your way up to the living quarters. It was raining fairly hard, so your hair was plastered down, your skin wet and cold. "Steve!" You called. You didn't even bother trying to keep your cries at bay anymore. Natasha was the first person to see you, and she ran over to you with concern clear on her face.

"What happened this time?"

"He went out with another girl."

"Oh, (y/n), you know he doesn't remember."

"That doesn't matter. It still hurts, Nat!" Tears slipped down your cheeks. "He remembers Steve, but he doesn't remember his fiance(e)."

"It's gonna take some time, (y/n)."

"It's been three months. How much longer do I have to wait, Nat?

I said it before I won't say it again. Love is a game to you. It's not pretend. Maybe if I fall asleep I won't breathe right.

Apparently the answer was two months. Bucky's relationship wasn't as strong as he was hoping it would be. The woman he called his girlfriend was called the same thing by two other men. Bucky only found out because he walked in on the two kissing. He ended it then and there, as he should have. He came to you for comfort.

"Am I just not good enough, (y/n)? Is there something wrong with me?" He moped.

"There's nothing wrong with you. She didn't deserve you anyway." You stirred at the pot of soup you were making to calm Bucky. After spooning some into bowls, you sat across from him, making sure he ate something. Every now and then you spun the ring on your finger.

"I never asked you: Who's the lucky guy?" Bucky nodded up at your hand.

"What do you mean, Buck?"

"The ring. Who gave you the ring?" He insisted. You looked down at your hands, contemplating whether or not to tell him. Natasha told you to let him remember on his own, but if he's asking, you should tell, right?

"You did," you croaked. You sniffed and cleared your throat, looking up at Bucky's confused face.

"That's impossible. If we're engaged I should have a ring," Bucky retaliated. His voice harbored no anger, but plenty on confusion. "Where's my ring?"

"In a ravine somewhere in Europe," you tried to joke. Bucky looked out the window with his eyebrows knit together. "I'm gonna go, Buck. If you need anything else, call me, okay?" When you stood to leave, Bucky followed suit, flinging his chair backwards. He gripped your forearm with his flesh hand. "Buck, come on, I know you don't feel anything towards me anymore-"

"You're wrong."

Can nobody hear me? I've got a lot that's on my mind. I cannot breathe. Can you hear it, too?

You looked at James Barnes with confusion apparent on your visage. Pain flowed through Bucky's face.

"I do love you, but I saw your ring. I thought..." he sighed and ran his free hand through his hair. "I thought you were engaged to someone else." He stared into your eyes. "I might not remember everything, but I will. I promise. Because I love you. I've always loved you," he was nearing tears now, "and I always will."

You didn't even think about it, you just pressed your lips to his, and you melted into each other. For the first time in sixty seven years, you felt like you were home.