To my EX,
It has been months & I still can't seem to forget you like you seem to have forgotten me,
I wonder if you lying awake at night thinking about what you could have done differently,
Should I have loved you harder?
Should I have listened more?
Should I have been a stronger person?
Should I have fucked you better?
At this point I don't even know what it is I'm holding so tightly when you have already let go,
I know you think I'm heartless because I'm the one that broke it off but I had no choice,
I knew you didn't love me the way you should,
I knew that you lied.
You wanna know how I know?
You couldn't even look me in the eyes.
Once I found out it was like an earthquake,
I was trapped under your sweet words "I would never hurt you" but thats exactly what you did.
I could have forgiven you but you just wanted to comfort me with lies.
You acted like I was the one hurting you because I didn't believe your lies.
You said I was listening to my friends to much & that's why I didn't believe you.
I defended you but it came to a point that even I couldn't defend you anymore.
I don't think you realise how much it hurt me when you said "we can still be friends",
I didn't know how to respond to that...
How can I be friends with after everything we have been though?
Thank you for hurting me,
Thank you for your lies,
Thank you for painting me as the villain,
Thank you for the half-assed love you gave me,
Cause now I know what it is I'm looking for.
I want a person that doesn't care how late it is I message they reply cause I need them,
I want a person that doesn't make me question there feelings,
I want a person who would gives the same love & effort I release.
When that person comes I'll be so glad that things never worked out.
