Lessons of Love

Why Hello There?

I woke up the next morning to my alarm clock, I quickly got up and hurriedly got over to my dresser to change out of my pajamas into my clothes so I can get this therapy session over with. That's all I want as of right now and nothing else. Maybe food but that's it. I no longer cared what I looked like honestly, I threw on my leggings and a sweatshirt, put my hair into a ponytail, and threw on my coat and boots. I look just fine to me.

"Lili"

"Yes?"

"Aren't you going to join me for breakfast?" While changing I decided I would just stop by starbucks and get my hot chocolate and bagel.

"No, I have to go back to the ward."

My mother chuckled then sighed "Go on then."

I walked out of the house allowed the cold weather to envelope my body into its icy poison of its own. I started walking down the steps until I heard the door open again.

"Lili, don't forget to wear your coat it's very cold!" With that she closed the door.

If only she knew what really was cold, trembling inside of me...I kept walking along the sidewalk until I made it to the Starbucks, I was greeted with the scenty aroma of coffee.

Next thing I know I got shoved and started falling, but I never felt the impact of my bum against the floor. What I did feel though was a hand around my waist pulling me up. Golden brown eyes, and those lashes...

"My apologies I didn't see where I was going" I stumbled back a bit trying to regain my balance.

"It's fine" I quickly stated and walked towards the cashier, within no time I heard heavy footsteps coming from behind me. I ignored it though, and quickly gave the cashier my order and money, I turned on foot and landed into a chest. I looked up into those golden brown eyes and those lashes once again, he let out a chuckle.

"We've got to stop meeting like this" I let out a breathe I didn't know I was holding as he let go of me, the warmth of his hands escaped my body once again and the cold within my own body enveloped me once again. "Yeah, um I gotta go"

I started walking away but stopped once I heard his voice "Will I ever see you again?"

I smirked unsure if I should enjoy this or not.

"Sure, if you catch when I fall again." He and I let out a laugh, a real one.

"Alright, I'll watch out for you" I just walked off with small smirk playing on my lips and my heart fluttering. Until we meet again.

I arrived a half an hour to the ward, I heard voices going on inside so I decided i should just wait a minute and knock afterwards...until I heard my name being mentioned in the conversation

What do you mean she doesn't know" silence, Ms. Smith must be on the phone "No, look she has to know that he's-" and that's when I cut her off, i didn't know who exactly 'he' was or whatever she was talking for that matter, I just wanted to get this session over with. "Lilith-what are you-wait-I'll call you later." She took a seat in her brown leather chair, "so shall we start" I scoffed "let's get this over with."

I choked on my own breath as she asked me the question I ever wanted asked, "how did this all start with Harry?"

Okay, now this is where the real story starts...

"Lilith?" Lilith tell her...tell her already don't think just say, wait think just do both. Not thinking and just saying is what got you into this mess in the first place. I took a deep breath unsure of where to start, so i started with the first time I met Harry Styles.