A Bit Crazy

Chapter 16: Chrysanthemums

[Dedicated to AStellarEclipse cause you're awesome!!!]

"My name is Marco?" I say, my eyes dropping down to my hands. They're covered in something that reminds me of ash, embers of my tan skin showing through. I'm wearing black shorts and a white shirt that's trapped all the smog from the baron, cracking ground. Everything felt off, this isn't what I usually wear, nor was my hair usually so pulled back.
I cough and look back up at the girl, "I'm the one on Earth. The one that Star had to live with?"
The girl's brows furrow. "Um yeah. Why... Do you not remember?"
I shake my head like a child and my hair falls onto my forehead. My eyes roll around and my head breaks into a small spin. I sway off balanced, my arms hanging uselessly by my side. "I only know what Fredrick told me."
"Well what did he tell you?" The girl's voice was pressed, like she was running out of time.
"Do you know who Moon or Toffee or River is?"
She nods warily as her figure lets out a static charge that pulled her out thinly. "Yeah. All of them."
"Fredrick told me a story about them." I turn back to her. "And this girl named Star."
Thump
I ignore my heart and stand tall in front of blond. This is killing both of us, I can tell, the air was heavy in my lungs at least.
"What did he say about Star?" She shifts her stance, impatient.
"I-" I clear my throat. "I didn't listen. I don't like that name."
"What?"
"It just... I feel something. In my chest whenever anyone says it. My heart thumps, it hits my ribs and my eyes fill with tears, like that person caused me... pain."
"Pain?" The girl snaps with some static again and she comes a little more in focus.
"Maybe? I'm not sure, I feel like all my emotions are basically gone." I say slowly. She dances on the balls of her feet, threatening to run away. Her face turns chartreuse and she looks at her feet, hands in a fist.
"You really don't like Star?" She whispers. "Deep down in your heart you really don't like her?" I exhale as the air becomes humid, the soot become heavy and lands on the ground turning into more of a thick tar. It begins to fill the cracks.
"Deep down I-" Looking over my shoulder I see the willow beginning to shrink and Fredrick has disappeared in the darkness. The cracks in my heart begin to swell up and I finally scream," I don't know! I feel unsure, is that not okay?"
"It's not! I need you to decide!"
"Why!?"
"Because if-" She stops and lags again. Somehow, through the static I can see tear streaming down her face and a glower forms. "I just need you back, okay?"
"But why? I don't even know who I am?"
She takes a step forward and her body becomes a little more sharp. I can hear someone yell, screaming out through her static but I can't tell who. My heart snaps again as she takes another step towards me. I clutch my chest as it sizzles and snaps like a fire crackling over dried logs.
She takes another step towards me and immediately, she leaps at me swiftly, hands grabbing my shoulders. My heart rate increases to unhealthy levels. It threatens to smash through my ribs and the fire spreads through my entire body.
And then she kisses me.
My eyes stay open as her body fades into light, her tears becoming more and more apparent.
Thump thump thump thump thump.
I push her off of me and fall into the ground. I land on grass and I gross smell over comes me. I feel tired and also paranoid and anxious. My eyes won't stay open and I choke back screams. That kiss scared me, it felt like she was pulling out my soul.
"Marco-" she inhales sharply and sniffles. "I'm so sorry."
"I-" I turn into my side so I'm facing away from her. "I don't like you! You scare me, you hurt me. And when you kissed me, it... felt like you were stealing my soul!
"I was trying to steal you heart..." She mumbles. "Listen I'm sorry Marco. I shouldn't of. You don't feel that way about me."
"I don't know who you are!" I scream as I sit up, my heart sinking in my chest. "You just... Appeared! That's not okay this is my world!"
She glances around. "It's nice."
"You are not allowed here!" I yell. "Go away!"
"No." She says firmly.
"No?" I clench my teeth.
"No."
"No!?"
"No."
"No..."
"No."
"Fuck." I fall and put my head in my hands. My brain felt filled to the brim with information. All of a sudden, a small idea slips over the top and I snap, "You never do what I say, huh?"
"Huh?"
I shake my head, hoping for more information to spill over but all that happens is my hair lands on my forehead again. "Never mind." The girl shocks again and sits down next to me. She puts her legs out but I hug mine closer to my chest and turn away, causing her to let out a long sigh. The sun is rising and as soon as it slips over the ground it lets out a warm stream of light. The girl fidgets annoyingly and begins to play with the grass. My head starts to feel like a bug was running around on my brain.
"Stop." I snap. "Just get away from me."
"If you don't know who I am... Why don't you like me?"
"Call it an instinct." I clutch my chest through my shirt.
"But why? Why do you have an instinct about that stuff? I don't."
"I guess I'm just better than you." I scoff.
"Hmm..." She smiles and let's the grass go. "I think it's because you can't read your own emotions."
"Shut up."
"I'm serious." She smiles. "Love sometimes feel the same as fear. When you're in love you feel scared. Your hands get sweaty, your stomach gets filled with butterflies and your heart pounds rapidly."
I throw my head up and snap to look at her. She's wearing a sunshine smile and her hair is blowing in the morning breeze. That smile. My heart thumps again. My stomach fills with butterflies just like she said and my eyes fill with tears.
"Star..." I manage to squeak through the years. "You're the daughter of Moon. You were sent to Earth with... With Marco... With... Me."
She nods.
"Your mom is never going to win against Toffee." I say suddenly, heavy breaths, trying to keep myself awake, all the cells of my being were begged for rest. "But Toffee's never going to win at life. They're both living in a fantasy now."
"Huh?" Star opens her blue eyes wide.
More information spills into my brain and the ground cracks open more. Star gasps with a smile and fades way with a few static, all the screams disappearing as well. I watch the cracks intensely as they rip more and more open. I expect smog or tar like before but all that grows up is a bunch small chrysanthemum. With vines with lovely bleeding hearts on them, they form a little garden of happiness. Another is filled with running water, and another is filled with stars, somehow. I stand up and the grass grows back, but the tree doesn't. Fredrick is gone, probably forever.
I grit my teeth and start to regret everything I've ever done. But I throw my head up and shake it. No time for that. I have to save everyone. Because it's all my fault. I was blinded by fear before but right now I felt none. I knew whatever I was feeling for a while was fake. All the fear and anger and disgust was all in my head while I was being selfish and ignoring all the love I was surrounded by. He took it for me, the first thing he took from me was the love I felt towards my friends and family and... Star. I grip my fists and stare at the unfolding sun.
"Toffee." I say before my brain can think. "I'm coming for you."
And I took off after the sun.

YEESH TOO LONG FOR UPDATES SORRY
IM NOT SURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS CHAPTER SO UH YEAH I MIGHT ALTER IT A BIT BUT NOTHING BIG
ONLY LIKE 3 CHAPTERS LEFT GUYS SORRY
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