Thugged Out 4: Real Life

EIGHT- You Mad?

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JESSICA

"Ant, I promised myself I would never kill anyone again." I say to him while we sit in our bed. I swore that part of my life was long gone but I couldn't just let my dumb ass kids get killed. I was willing to die last night before I let it happen to them even if they were being complete idiots and being disrespectful.

"Jessica, it happened and it's done." he says. "This why I can't stand you. You always so nonchalant when I need you to be here for me." I go off. He sits up. "You know what, the fuck going on with you that got you constantly on my ass every other second when I ain't even doing shit? What, you cheating on me and I disgust you now? What's good?" he goes back off. "Are you? You aren't supportive and you always leave me figuring shit out alone." I say, feeling myself about to cry.

He stands up then sighs in frustration. "What I'm supposed to even say?" he asks. "You know what, leave me alone." I demand. "If you pregnant again, Imma just shoot my dick off. I'm sick of this overly emotional ass shit you got going on. You pregnant, mane?" he asks. "How about I just take my bloody ass pad off and throw it at your ass and you'll have your answer then." I sarcastically say. I'm sick of him asking if I'm pregnant everytime I get upset cause he won't listen to me vent and hold me. I have feelings too.

He takes a deep breath. "Jessica, all I'm saying is I love you and you know I'm here for you. You just gotta understand I honestly don't be knowing how to respond to certain shit." he tells me. "I don't care about a response. Just please take your eyes off of ESPN for one second and hold me and tell me everything is okay or something. I'm tired of not being held by you as much as I should be." I say.

He sits down. "What's going on with you? You all stressed out and suddenly wanna take a vacation and shit. What is it?" he asks me. My eyes tear up. "Nothing." I answer. He wraps his arms around me, holding me. "I just need my mind off of everything. The kids are driving me crazy. I'm scared every single second of the day because I don't want to have to bury my kids young and I feel it coming if they don't change. No matter what I do, they always find a way to get in something. If we weren't there, they would've been dead. LaLa got the shit stabbed out of her, Ant. What if we weren't there to help? I'm just terrified and I wanna get them on this vacation because the less they're here, the less I have to worry about one of them getting shot and killed." I vent, crying. I wouldn't wish the constant fear of losing your children on anybody at all. Tae and LaLa are just out of control and they won't stop no matter what I do.

"Jessica, I think about that shit too." he says. "I don't know what to do. Nothing helps. I can talk to them nicely one day and the next they're back on their bullshit. I could knock one of their asses out and soon as they heal, they right back to chasing that stupid ass thug life dream of theirs." I say. He leans in then kisses me on my lips. "Baby, that shit ain't yo fault. You can teach somebody right from wrong all day long but at the end of the day, folks do what they wanna do. They gotta bump they heads first, I see." he says. "But what if it's too late then? Once reality set in, I really realized my kids could've gotten killed last night and that scares me." I say.