Thugged Out 4: Real Life

THIRTY FOUR- LITTLE SECRETS

Okay, everybody wanna know where I've been and I got 2 words for that: PREGNANT + MISERABLE
Ya girl going through it, lol.

And for everybody asking about CONNECT, no it's not discontinued. That's just what I'm finishing up to put on Amazon first, then Thugged Out is going second. My book RIDE that most of ya'll never got to read is going third.

COMMENT & VOTE ❤

"You're my little secret and that's how we should keep it. We should never let em know, never let it show. If you know, like I know; we should never let it go." - Xscape

1 MONTH LATER

TAE

"Hey, Tae. How are you?" Lianna's auntie asks me as I walk in their apartment. "I'm okay. Where she at?" I ask, giving her a hug. Lianna, her cousin Asia, and her auntie Patricia moved into an apartment here in Los Angeles about three weeks ago. Her aunt got custody of her now. She ain't my girl but I come see her just to check on her after her dad fucked her up and killed our baby.

"She should be in her room. Don't close no doors in my house neither. I heard you have a birthday coming up." she says. "It's today." I correct her, making her laugh. "Oh, wow. Happy Birthday, sweetheart. What gifts did you get? I bet you got you a nice, sweet sixteen car." she says. "Naw, I didn't get nothing." I answer. All I got was my license earlier this morning after I woke up. So, I'm whipping legally, finally. I haven't talked to my parents. I'm trying to get Noble to get custody of me or some shit even though I'm always with Reign's fat ass.

She frowns. "No gift? Why not?" She asks. "I don't want to talk about it." I answer. She looks me over. "Take a seat." She demands. I sigh, sitting down at the table. "Where your parents at? You spend a lot of time out roaming the streets. I've been meaning to ask you how you make money as well. You just turned sixteen so I know a job wasn't keeping you paid." She says. My life has been crazy as hell. If I was childish before, being on my own damn sure made me a man fast. I've been through so much shit out there by myself. It's crazy.

"My brother." I lie. "You live with your brother?" She asks. "My big brother trying to get custody of me and my sister take care of me. She pregnant so I take care of her though." I answer. Reign is getting so big. She can't wait until it's time to have her baby. Drew ain't shit but a bitch ass nigga. He don't take her to no appointments, he don't buy her shit when she craving, he ain't there when she sick, he wasn't there to find out the gender when we went, and I doubt he'll show up when she gives birth. It's been me taking her wherever she gotta go because she be in pain sometimes and ain't supposed to be driving for a while. That shit so fucked up.

She looks at me funny. "What kind of family do you come from?" She asks. "A normal family, I guess. They ain't perfect. We going through a lot." I tell her. It ain't none of her business. I ain't ever bashing my parents to nobody on the outside. My momma came back around trying to fix shit but me and her came to the conclusion that it was best for one of my siblings to have custody. It wasn't even on no trifling shit. After I started doing shit on my own, I wasn't trying to hear them.

"Are you involved in anything illegal or dangerous?" She asks. "Naw, everything cool. Can I go talk to Lianna?" I ask, standing up. If not, I'll just leave. I try to check on her after the shit with her daddy killing the baby and fucking her up because she still hasn't healed from it. That don't mean I wanna sit down and constantly get questioned by her auntie every single time I come through. I just wanna check on the girl even though her pops is still at the top of my hit list and I can't wait to whack that bitch made ass, pretending ass pastor for the shit he did and for what he said on the cruise. I don't forget or forgive shit no more.