false hope; joshler [✔]

July 1st

Yesterday and the day before I stayed with you.
The kind nurses that take good care of you let me sleep over.
I slept cuddled up wth you and it was probably the best sleep I've gotten.
Ever since you've gotten in the coma I've been restless.
I thought that it would be too guilty or selfish of me to get a peaceful night of rest when you were in pain.
I'm starting to notice how dull my life is without you.
People I hadn't even met started calling me and asking about you.
You were so social.
Half of my (our) friends originated from you.
I think I need to start being more like you and meeting new people to hang out with instead of sulking around and writing down my problems to you.
You must be annoyed me for selfishly just talking about myself when you're the more important one who deserves attention.
I'm sorry.
Love, Joshua.