false hope; joshler [✔]

July 15th (pt.2)

It's still July 15, 2017.
I know I've written to you already today but that letter was really depressing.
Honestly, I wasn't in a bad state of mind when writing that.
It's not like I'm in a better one now but I'm definitely more stable which is good, right?
Anyways,
You get two letters today.
How exciting am I right?
I'm kidding.
You probably hate my letters and regret reading them.
But this is a letter of apology.
An apologetic letter.
I know I've made letters already of just me saying I'm sorry but hear me out.
In this letter I'll be in a better mood than I was in the last letter.
Maybe I'll get confident because of this letter.
You probably think I'm crazy.
Maybe even ridiculous.
But that's okay.
You always told me that I was strong and I believed you.
I'm at a dark time right now so I'm going to remember those wise words you once told me.
I'm going to get my act together.
Or at least try.
Wish me luck.
I'm doing this for you.
Love, Joshua.