false hope; joshler [✔]

July 21st

Today has been boring.
Today has also been sad.
It's been raining all day.
But I've been spending today with you so that's at least a bit entertaining and happier.
You wanna know something funny?
Earlier today when I was holding your hand and whispering stuff to you I swear that I felt you squeeze my hand.
I immediately freaked out and went to tell a nurse.
You wanna know what the nurse told me?
That I was hallucinating.
That I miss you so much to the point where my mind thinks you're moving.
What a bitch.
Love, Joshua.
p.s sorry for cursing again but she deserves it so I won't apologize to her :)