control • theo raeken [1]

deleted scene.

Theo

takes place after chapter nine

I MAKE A CUP of coffee as I wait for everyone to wake up from their power naps.  The reason I was here was to get Kira talking Japanese on recording and to keep Luna from reading the book.  I need the recording for leverage, and Luna can't read the book if my plan is to go as it should.

The night my sister died, when Luna killed her, the Dread Doctors showed up while she was in her wolf form.  Even though she was looking through wolf eyes, I knew there was chance she could possibly be able to understand what was going on.  They should've scared her, made her take off somewhere into the woods like any animal would've done, but she stayed.  Studying us.  Watching our every movement.  Trying to figure out what we were doing with her kill.

She watched on as they took the heart out of my sister's chest and when they finally led me away, she just stood there.  Almost as if she were judging me for going with the people who didn't belong around here.  I forgot how much it bothered me, until now, to see her staring at me from her wolf eyes when I was only doing it to be a wolf.

I was doing it to be with her.

The realization dawns on me as I remember the whole reason why I agreed to go with the Dread Doctors.  It wasn't for survival or for being better.  It was because I'd wanted to be with Luna.  I was afraid if I wasn't a wolf, the chances of her wanting to stay with me seemed small.  Which seems a bit weird for a kid to worry about, but I truly liked her a lot—and being a werewolf was like having super powers so what little kid wouldn't take that chance.

As the years passed on of doing what the Doctors wanted me to do, I forgot my initial reason for being a Chimera.  I began to strive for the feeling of chaos and control.  My parents were the first to suffer the new found need of disaster that started when I was around thirteen—which made sense since I'd started to go through puberty.  This went on for a few years.  The Doctors and I went from town to town, trying to create more successful Chimeras.  But, as time went on, causing chaos didn't suffice as well as it had.  I still wanted to cause chaos, but I didn't want to do it alone.  I wanted a pack.

So, when they wanted to move on from the town we were terrorising, I made the Dread Doctors promise to give me a pack.  They told me they knew the perfect pack they could give me.  A true Alpha's pack.  Scott McCall's.  They said it'd be easy to infiltrate his since they already knew me.  I guess they didn't account for Luna to still be here.

I set the coffee mug I've been sipping from down on the counter and walk over to stand in the doorway to the living room.  My eyes scan over all of the sleeping bodies before landing on Luna.  Earlier, when we kissed, I'd done it to keep her distracted.  I didn't think I'd end up liking as much as I did.  It brought up old feelings I had forgotten I had for her, and I'm not sure how to deal with them.

Looking around at everyone, I still want them to be in my pack.  But how am I suppose to go through with this evil plan if I'm catching feelings for someone?  Catching feelings is just a weakness that can be used against me.  It can create a softness in me that could screw up any part of the plan.  If they find out I have actual feelings for Luna, they could potentially use it against me.

I walk over to Luna's side, and squat down to her level.  Leaning on the armrest, I brush her hair out of her face.  She mumbles incoherently before shifting under my touch.  For someone who's been alone for almost half of her life, she deals with it a lot better than someone else would in her shoes.  She's a strong, smart, selfless person who deserves the world.

From that moment, I decide.  If she finds out what I'm doing and what I've done, I will pretend she was just a means to an end.  Another part of my plan to break the pack apart.  Nothing more than that.  She'll be heartbroken, but it'll hurt her less in the end and she won't be with someone like me.

I guess superheros and bad guys have something in common.

People like us don't get the girl.

If y'all get what I'm referencing to, I'll honestly love you so much. Here is the deleted scene! I'd written this originally as a chapter but then I didn't like it well enough for that. So I hope you guys enjoyed this.  Please vote or comment!
- chelsie

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