Female Robbery (Z.M)

18. true disaster

Zayn P.O.V

This girl is an angel and has a hold over me.

The only rational excuse I could conjure watching Alina's chest rise and fall with every breath she took. I'd woken up from my short nap, to find her small figure curled up against me, with my arm holding her to me. The other one had been placed behind my head relaxed. Soon as clarity hit me I couldn't stop questioning why the hell I was entertaining this thing I had with Alina.

Most definitely a thing because I crossed the point of no return. Truth is, I didn't see myself wanting to head back either. Alina's consuming me and I'm spiraling into something that if I got caught would earn my head on a silver platter to Derrick.

I didn't want to think of that right now. I just want to be in this moment with this beautiful brunette haired girl who made the world disappear. I call her a child but these past few days Alina has shocked me.

Sexually I have never been more attracted to a woman in my life. Just looking at me Alina makes me rock hard and I'm itching to throw her into any flat surface. So I can fuck the life out of her. I thought about that constantly now, being in between her legs, pumping into that sweet tight hole.

I had her on my mouth but now I wanted her on me. I don't how much longer I could control myself from not doing that. There's only so much foreplay to do before  the actual deed. I know she wants it like I do. Knowing that Alina wants me drives me fucking crazy because I want her just the same or even more.

"Such a serious expression on that face." Alina interrupts my thoughts. I hadn't felt her stir or any other indication that she'd woken up. Not that I mind anyways. I'm actually please to see she's up now. Almost dinner time too. I tell by how the sun is beginning to set outside my window.

"Just thinking." I answer honestly although not completely. I didn't tell her what I'm thinking of. More of me problem than hers anyways.

"That was a nice nap." Alina comments yawning, her mouth making a perfect shaped O with those plump rosy lips. I couldn't resist and pull her face to mine. Alina smiles against my lips then laughs pressing kisses at the same time.

"That's one way to agree with me." Alina muses pressing herself to me.

"Your mouth is too pretty for mine to not be on it." I shrug saying simply.

Alina smiles again but this time it's a wide smile, and without a single command on my part, my own lips inch upwards to offer a smile of my own.

"I beg to differ." Alina teases bringing a hand up to caress my cheek. I surprise myself by closing my eyes letting her touch me. I wasn't used to this kind of interaction with woman unless it was rough.

"How old are you?" Alina asks suddenly.

"23." I answer truthfully. Very few people knew actual true information about me. I had different names, ages, and even different races I could pretend to be. It's not safe for anyone to know the real details about my life. Part of being in this world is that you have to be an actor. Pretend to be someone you're not or pretend to be someone that can live with the things he does. Sometimes when I am by myself, truly by myself I think about the girls.

Not in a sexual way. Never in a sexual way but I do think about them. I hope that the new life in stored for them treats them good. I'd like to think that they would get smart and learn the ropes so that it doesn't go hard on them. I like to think that if they can get past having sex with someone they don't want everything else is much easier.