Best Friends? Or More? [EDITING]

Chapter 29

•have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not or saying nothing and wishing you had•

"I love you."

I froze when those words left my lips. Why did I say that?

Zach turned towards me, eyebrows raised. I wanted to dig a hole and just die there right now but my eyes never left his and that's why I saw the amusement in it. Of course he would feel amused.

"Why the sudden love for me?" He joked.

I sighed tiredly. Of course he would joke out of something like this. He saw me as a best friend only after all.

And that hurt the most.

"I have loved you since a long time." I said with a smile. Let's just get this over with.

His amusement left his face in an instant replacing it with confusion. "What do you mean?"

I smiled sadly. "I loved you more than a friend, you dork." I chuckled and that was when I felt drops of water falling down on my hands. Aahh shit. I didn't mean to cry.

Those words made him pale and he froze. He was clearly shocked. I was finding amusement in it along with the deep pain. I was really strange.

"Wh-why- w-wha-ho-"

"Let me finish." I said, putting an end to his miserable attempt of talking right after a shocking confession. He didn't see that coming obviously.

"I had loved you since the day you came to talk to me in front of my mother's grave. I considered you as an angel sent by mom, you know. I was happy you were my friend but I didn't expect I would fall for you but I did and I got hurt everytime you called me your best friend. Believe me I am happy but it still hurt.  I know you won't feel the same because you have Maddison and I'm okay with that. I just had to tell you my feelings because I am done getting hurt all the time. I want to move on from you because I want you to be happy. So that's it."

Relief and contentment flooded through me now that the truth was out. I felt light hearted now that I didn't have to hide it anymore and somewhat happy. Maybe it would take time to move on but this was just the beginning. I just hope he won't treat me any different.

Zach looked totally at lost for words. He didn't know what to say. I giggled.

"It's fine Zach. You don't need to give me an answer or something because I don't expect any. I just had to lay it out. Call it selfish, but for my self satisfaction. Just don't treat me differently because I will try and push this feelings out of my system so that you won't have any guilt when you will be with Maddison." I said, with a small smile.

Zach opened his mouth to say something but was interrupted with the opening of the door. My eyes widened when I realised it was Gabriel.

Thump!

Shit. My heart started acting weird with him here. My thoughts went into haywire and I blushed a little when I remembered what he had said.

"Are you guys still talking?" He asked, giving a hard look to Zach. Zach still seemed to be in shock because he just shook his head in a dazed manner.

"I-I w-was just going." He said, glanced at me nervously then walked out of the door.

Gabriel raised his eyebrows at me but I just blushed a lot and shrugged back.

I opened my mouth to say something when my father stepped in. I froze for the nth time today at the unexpected visitor. I thought he didn't have anything to do with me. Why was he here?